Sometimes I just lose track of the point of it all. I can't see me getting anywhere. I can see where I want to get but I can't find the path. Or I realise I've been striding along the wrong path for ages. Sometimes I just want to sit in a quiet place and never leave.
I wish I knew why I just fall apart some times. I got to stop crying for no reason. Not tonight though. Tonight I am train wreck. I train wreck in desperate need of a glass of wine.
All this would be solved if one of my friends, I don't care which one, bothered to phone me tonight. I really need to speak to someone but I'll be damned if I'm going to phone anyone. I always seem to be doing the chasing. One phone call would make me feel so much better right now.
Give me one good reason to love you
Give me one good reason at all
I'm going to go and drink wine, eat curry amd then I'm going to curl up under the covers.
Bollocks to feeling like this. I hate all my self-pity, its so pathetic. I've got a good life, a great family and shit things just don't happen to me. I am perfectly aware of how lucky I am. I have no reason to cry and no reason to mope.
Fuck but I make me angry sometimes.
I wish I knew why I just fall apart some times. I got to stop crying for no reason. Not tonight though. Tonight I am train wreck. I train wreck in desperate need of a glass of wine.
All this would be solved if one of my friends, I don't care which one, bothered to phone me tonight. I really need to speak to someone but I'll be damned if I'm going to phone anyone. I always seem to be doing the chasing. One phone call would make me feel so much better right now.
Give me one good reason to love you
Give me one good reason at all
I'm going to go and drink wine, eat curry amd then I'm going to curl up under the covers.
Bollocks to feeling like this. I hate all my self-pity, its so pathetic. I've got a good life, a great family and shit things just don't happen to me. I am perfectly aware of how lucky I am. I have no reason to cry and no reason to mope.
Fuck but I make me angry sometimes.
I have been stuck in that feeling, the feeling that absolutely nothing is going right and the world isn't cutting me one single break for a couple of weeks now. It sucks. I also have the feeling that everyone is pretty much tired of hearing about my drama. But it's the only thing going on in my life. Horrid. I hate it. I hope the shitluck passes soon for both of us.