Charley mentions her Grandparents in her journal which got me thinking about mine. It doesn't take much to do that to be honest as I am constantly aware how lucky I am to have known them.
Both my Grandmothers are still alive and are still very wonderful people They both seem indestructable and I hope that remains the case for a very long time I never knew my Dads Dad as he died when my Dad was in his late teens. My Granddad on my Mums side was the greatest influence on my young life, the only real hero I have ever had. He died when I was 11 and I miss him now. He wouldn't let his Grandkids see him when he was dieing and that still hurts.
More then anything I wish he had been around as I grew up, so much I understand now and wish I could have asked him about that I just dodn't get when I was a kid. So much I think he could tell me.
Shit this is getting me all teary eyed and I always do a crap job of putting in to words what he means to me so I'll leave it there.
Other news
- works awful, I hate computers and IT people.
- I am starting to worry about the cost of moving out.
Must not think about it, must not think about it.
Both my Grandmothers are still alive and are still very wonderful people They both seem indestructable and I hope that remains the case for a very long time I never knew my Dads Dad as he died when my Dad was in his late teens. My Granddad on my Mums side was the greatest influence on my young life, the only real hero I have ever had. He died when I was 11 and I miss him now. He wouldn't let his Grandkids see him when he was dieing and that still hurts.
More then anything I wish he had been around as I grew up, so much I understand now and wish I could have asked him about that I just dodn't get when I was a kid. So much I think he could tell me.
Shit this is getting me all teary eyed and I always do a crap job of putting in to words what he means to me so I'll leave it there.
Other news
- works awful, I hate computers and IT people.
- I am starting to worry about the cost of moving out.
Must not think about it, must not think about it.
I just hate age so much, I feel like I am running out of time with them and that makes me not want to see them because it makes me sad. Which is just stupid
I won't say a thing then.