Wow, I just slept about 13 hours straight.
This was a planned thing. I popped 3 OTC sleep pills last night about 10pm.
They had a much bigger kick than I expected. I think 1/2 or 1 is supposed to be enough.
Well, I figured my body needed it because of my continual lack of sleep the last couple of weeks.
I briefly woke up...
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This was a planned thing. I popped 3 OTC sleep pills last night about 10pm.
They had a much bigger kick than I expected. I think 1/2 or 1 is supposed to be enough.
Well, I figured my body needed it because of my continual lack of sleep the last couple of weeks.
I briefly woke up...
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I've been going through and clearing out old relics, garbage and driftwood.
It's hard living in the debris of a house of ghosts.
I am living the decay and wreckage of two years past, of ten years past, of thirty years past.
It's hard to remember who I was. There is an urgency, or else it just fade away a little more.
Who I was...
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coccinelle:
Thank you for such a beautiful comment darling!
I didnt want to have eating disorder, but i am feel so fat, darling, you know? it is in my head
like the voices 
I am really glad that you like my photos!
I wanna meditating, but still dont have time to concentrate..
I didnt want to have eating disorder, but i am feel so fat, darling, you know? it is in my head
like the voices I am really glad that you like my photos!
I wanna meditating, but still dont have time to concentrate..
ilsa:
I'm definitely going for the freaky aspect of it. I am not sure if it going to be educationl, that doctor seems kind of nuts 
Well... here it is. 2:24am
I've been going to bed between 2 and 3 am every night.
I've been stuck in the oddest and most unproductive and vaguely self-destructive patterns lately.
Not lately, just ever increasingly for the last... couple of years.
I only got 5 hours sleep last night, so you'd think I'd be dead tired and eager to get home to go to...
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rin:
no, the only time i've seen them make it is when they cut open a package and re-heated it at a fast food place.
tsunami:
I was actually born and rased in Japan It IS a wierd place but I miss it for some reason.
It IS a wierd place but I miss it for some reason.This week has been so weird.
I had another messed up dream last night.
It had to with rats and kitten and not knowing the difference between the two, and then it was a baby.
There is some deep dark weird stuff going on in my subconscious and it's unsettling me.
My sleep schedule is fucked. I stayed up to 6am playing online poker and...
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I had another messed up dream last night.
It had to with rats and kitten and not knowing the difference between the two, and then it was a baby.
There is some deep dark weird stuff going on in my subconscious and it's unsettling me.
My sleep schedule is fucked. I stayed up to 6am playing online poker and...
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pistolita:
That sounds like my schedule. It's bad. But I work at night, so my body is all sorts of screwed up.
vanessa:
HI MR.FRED!!!!
Hmm...
Okay time for a more regular entry.
Saturday morning I had this dream where I was somehow implicated in a murder. My grandfather (already dead) was also involved. It somehow seemed he was responsible, yet I was the one being looked for.
There was some incident with a pickaxe breaking through a wall and through someone's head.
It was declared an accident yet somehow...
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Okay time for a more regular entry.
Saturday morning I had this dream where I was somehow implicated in a murder. My grandfather (already dead) was also involved. It somehow seemed he was responsible, yet I was the one being looked for.
There was some incident with a pickaxe breaking through a wall and through someone's head.
It was declared an accident yet somehow...
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_pie_:
smart man.
dr_lizardo:
I thought DiCaprio was all right In Gangs. Also thought the love strory was all right too.
I hope you're still clear of the fires.
I hope you're still clear of the fires.
Damn, that last entry was really incoherent.
phantasy:
Ha ha, you could say that!
chloe:
we just got one. 
I've had a very turbulent last few weeks.
It started with an incident that made me want to bail on my job.
Then things smoothed over but I already made plans for an interview for somewhere else.
Then I had the interview and more seriously started considering jumping.
Then realizing I shouldn't leave just on some random impulse and instead what I should do try...
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y:
Testify! Yeah, it's not the same around here, is it. And useability's gone out the window.
Take care of yourself man.
Take care of yourself man.
phantasy:
Thanks so much for that in-depth reply in the Buddhism group. It's hard to find long periods of time to sit as I have a 3 year old, so I sit when I can, for as long as I can. It's a little erratic at the moment, but I feel as though I'm doing okay.
I had a couple of interesting dreams lately.
The one from this morning I had a pretty good memory of at first but most it I already forget.
The most memorable part was that Charles Bronson (of the Death Wish movie series) was suddenly living in a room of my house.
I opened the door and he was living there and acting as if "yeah,...
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misskoneko:
Oh i intend to - dont worry
danielle:
got a few plans but nothing really set in stone yet.
Comic con is next week.
There comes a great commotion of geeks and freaks here in San Diego .
And I shall be among them.
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bodhistarr:
I haven't been to comic con in two years, prior to that I have been every year since I was 10.
I don't actually have a booth but the company I work for does, it is Diamond Comic Distributers.
The company I work for is a sister company underneath that called Hake's Americana.
I don't actually have a booth but the company I work for does, it is Diamond Comic Distributers.
The company I work for is a sister company underneath that called Hake's Americana.
rin:
no, i think it was called the birch theatre? it's in north park/hillcrest, i think at university + 30th. it's across from claire de lune and beside the restaurant 'spread'.
Time for a break...
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vi:
*lol* thanks for your comment xoxo
saraphine:
Well, not 15 minutes earlier I stepped on a headless bird body, so I feel ya. They also bring in live snakes! Cats are bastards!!
Here is an interesting experience I'd like to relay to you all and I'm really curious what y'all impression of it is.
Normally on the weekend I have my usual routine which is to sleep in Saturday morning. Then sometime between noon and 3pm I'll go out to one of a handful of restaurants within a mile of my house. I've been doing this somewhat...
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Normally on the weekend I have my usual routine which is to sleep in Saturday morning. Then sometime between noon and 3pm I'll go out to one of a handful of restaurants within a mile of my house. I've been doing this somewhat...
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dancer29:
Well, I don't actually play, I'm on the dance team. There's a game this month on the 30th, but I should be there NEXT month.
ardnazak:
Hey there stranger...hope all is well. Miss talking to you.
Okay.
Not feeling quite as desolate anymore lately, only slightly wretched.
Not too bad at all.
I had a conversation last night that reminded me of how I never want to be.
Nothing all that bad, but I just don't want to ever go back to how it was.
I would like to stop thinking about how to change everything or waiting for inspiration or...
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Next time you wanna sleep a lot do a lot of things that get you really tired in that day, and use muscle relaxers or some anxiolytic if necessary (not three if you are not used to them because you'll fall asleep for the whole day!) Man I don't do drugs, but I am such an expert in the legal ones!