frankie18

I wish I was still a virgin. I wish I had the confidence of a whore. I wish I could see into the future. And know what the future has in store. I wish I was a liar. I wish I was a cheat. I wish I didnt care so much what others think of me. I wish I was the kinda person who always knows exactly what to do. I wish I wasnt honest. I wish I wasnt true. I wish I was perfect. funny. Smart. and cool. I wish I had a house on each coast and a life to go with each of those. I wish I was a writer. I wish I was a designer. I wish I was a poet. I wish I was a famous artist. I wish I was a child protge and everyone thought highly of me. I wish I could travel anywhere I want. I wish I had a fast car that could scream down the street. I wish I had the strength just to pack up and leave. I wish I had someone who understood me. Someone who will stop to watch the rain. Someone who will warm my tea. Someone who will wrestle with me. Someone to keep me grounded. Someone to keep me sane. Someone who understood that all they need to do to love me is just be. I wish I had a friend whos been around once or twice. Someone whos been down this road before and knows what to expect. I need someone a little older than me to take me under their wing. Someone who knows right from wrong. Someone who understands what I need. Someone I can talk for hours to. Someone who knows when to leave me alone. And knows all my favorite songs. I feel like im burning out. Each day that goes by I feel like im growing farther away from the person I want to be. My friends arnt going anywhere and there taking me with them. I feel like im running out of time. I feel like ill never do all the things I want to. I feel like no one will ever know the real me. I feel like no one thinks im pretty. I fear that ill never be in love. I feel like I need a change a scenery. I feel like I need some drastic change. I feel like im suffocating. College is quickly losing its intrest. I wish I could skip my teens. I feel like I need to get away. I wish I could start a career already. I wish I knew how to live. I fear that I wont even make it to 23.

Its funny how quickly your mood can change. Im sorry this is so long. But i needed to get it out. Quickly