frankie18

tonight i said some good bye's to people. it was weird. i cried on the way home in frankies car for many aparent reasons which she understood with out me saying a word. i'm gonna miss all my time with her, i hope the move doesn't seperate us from being such good friends. i'm gonna get my scooter back on sunday. my friend said that everyone he knows has gotten in an accident on a bike or scooter. i'm waiting for mine and i am intruiged to see how well i will end up. i'm also buying a fixed gear so that will be fun to have as well. i'm gonna get a tattoo this week. i've been feeling like shit so pain is better to focus on than life itself. i'm looking forward to playing music again. i want to start a girls fight club. the holidays still sucked this year. maybe i just don't like them and there is nothing anyone can do to make e happy with them, i always dream about being with someone forever. i always wish we had a house together. i want a kid but won't have it. i don't fuck. my mom found out my g.f. is an online pron model. that always goes over well with a nice jewish mother. though she was understanding because she doesn't care she doesn't want her to get kid napped which i'm not sure how that would happen. i had the "brake" up talk tonight and now i can't sleep. i'm stuck in this chair with damien rice and swollen eyelids. i got asked to model for a stupid co. but i don't want to be in front of a camera right now because i'll probably cry. and i don't want to waste my time when it is precious right now. anyways. this is a dumb journal and it's slowing down my c.d. burning process for some reason.