Well, it's been a wee while now hasn't it?
I don't really know what to say about what's been goin' on 'cept I've had a crazy couple of weeks (and not the good crazy).
Emotionally, it's probably been the toughest month of my life so far. Everything is changing. And I've no way of knowing if it's all for the better until I do it.
The main thing is that shit is gettin' sorted out. There's no point pretending that some ways of living are not healthy and can lead to your downfall, or the downfall of those you love.
Now, I'd like to say that I'm just dandy but not everyone around me has been having a great time recently. And that affects me directly...emotionally, physically, financially etc.
Me and Jen been thinking of packin' it in with Cork and moving home for a year. I hate my hometown but maybe it is the best thing to do seems it's hella cheaper there, and we'll have all our really close friends and family around us. Which I think is important cause we're probably gonna have a really tough year. Well Jen more than me but it's gonna be hard for me too on a less major level.
She's always been my priority and now more than ever. I'm not afraid to say I love her more than I thought I was capable of loving anyone. I love her more than my brand new Holga that finally arrived after getting sent to me and back and to me again!! And that says alot...no really. It's much bigger than I could ever dream of describing.
But yeah - I've been off work for 3 weeks. I'm back tonight and I'm shitting it. And I'm by myself. We came back to Cork last Friday and Jen's sis came Sunday night but Jen went home again 'til Friday cause I'm on nights and she'd be by herself if she stayed so I have to be my myself instead. Which is ok cause I'll probably sleep most of the time. Plus I have the Holga to play with now...and the internet's back up and running.
Later lovelys xo
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Sorry to hear those around you aren't really having a great time at the mo, it does hugely affect you, and you've to still be strong for them, and that's bloody hard work, but all you can do, and so much help. And it's admirable that you care so much.
Is there an alternative to moving back to your hometown, that still gets you somewhere cheaper than cork? I dunno, i'm only used to Cork, so i'm rubbish on knowing how much stuff costs elsewhere, but is it that bad here?
Where you working anyway?