flyonwall

so the last few nights i've had some rather pleasant and vivid dreams about someone..

the only downside to this.. besides being they're just dreams.. this girl seems to have no face.. try as i might. her face and head in general is just a blur..

and.. i find this oddly fitting.. as i seem to flit between a few different girls i have/have had...
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well.. i've been sick this week.. but i'm not really now..

freak show at dissent on friday night.. rumour has it it'll be their last one ever..

other than being sick.. nothing has really happened since well.. from monday afternoon when i came home early from work until this morning when i went to work..i did nothing but eat soup and sit around in my...
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tonight was a good night..



aaahh! smiley abuse!!

i'm drunk.. and had a good night..

i stayed thinking happy thoughts.

except.. i think i may have been hitting on a few people without realizing it and not meaning to..



well.. one of them.. i think i meant it but.. since she may still have a boyfriend.. probably not a good idea..

oh alcohol.

oh industrial...
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right now.. i feel like both Zincy and Mr Ritkiller

so.. in my ever continuing quest to be the supreme emotional maschoist in the world.. i ended up going over to sarah's today.. they got a new kitten so it was nice visiting with the new kitten, sarah and her brother..

well.. her boyfriend.. that i'm trying hard to like so it doesn't look like...
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why do i insist on doing this to myself?

just today while walking to work.. i decided i need to try and start discreetly distancing myself from girl i liked/maybe still like/am really fucking confused about/. . .

what do i do within 5 minutes of tlaking to her online tonight?

make plans to hang out tomorrow..

now granted i'm drunk and lonely (in a,...
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*pats himself on the back*

i did good tonight.. was around girl i liked/still like/fucking confused about and her boyfriend that i used to not like and i was friendly and social and whatnot.. it's amazing the bond invader zim can bring between people.. on the drive home from giving them a ride home i sort of realized i might not have liked him before...
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so far.. so nothing.. been doing good at hiding my mopeyness and feeling of being crushed underfoot

i love how varied my musical tastes are..

today at the same time i bought

the new esthero album
the apop album they cover a metallica song o
an old vnv album i've been looking for for quite awhile

all of these were purchased while i was listening...
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weekend update.. or.. my life update.. (for the whole.. 2 of my friends.. 1 of whom is on livejournal and i think knows alot of this)

i have funny hair again.. or still..

i live for real in london (ontario) now.. i work at another call centre.. ugh.. but it pays better.. dj-ing is still coming along nicely.. we got new equipment a couple months...
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so yeah.. i'm back..

curse you pretty women and your special discunt offers...

*shrugs* just more of the same really has happened.. other than i've officially moved and stuff..

why is it everytime i open my mouth to say something important to her.. something completely different and trivial ends up coming out?

*paces back and forth and back and forth and back and forth and back and forth and back and forth and back and forth*

i'm already a wreck for tomorrow morning.. i think i'm getting myself too worked up over it but.. at the same time.. it could be horrendous..

but.. i'll just focus on apartment hunting tomorrow afternoon and then a visit to toronto...
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it's starting to set in that tomorrow is my last day at young america (canada) corporation..

i've been there full time for just over 2 years.. i still kind of don't believe i'm going to be gone from there for very long.. it feels like waiting for a vacation or something..

i'm just kind of in a daze about the whole thing.. hopefully tomorrow it...
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