Fuck it, I'm back in Vancouver, and surprisingly happy about it.
Spent the last 3 weeks in london, trying to see as much of my friends and family as possible, but didn't do nearly as well as I'd hoped. Wanted to see vortext, bit gutted I didn't, but I did get to see Mark_plus_Beer, which was damn good.
Went to two weddings, which were both totally beautiful in their own way, one of which I was an usher at.
But, now, I'm sat here, high up in my flat, watching my lovely large tv, missing people, especially my Girly friend, whom Mark met, and wondering, yet again, what the fuck I'm doing. Actually, that's not entirely true. I feel I should be wondering what I'm doing, but in all truth, now I'm back in Canada, I'm really, really happy.
There's something about this place, this city, that makes me feel truly relaxed and like I can do anything, and everything, I want to. The last time I remember feeling like this was when I was 21, and at uni, and felt the whole world was mine to do with what I pleased (although now I have more money to make things actually happen).
I'm not sure what is going to happen with the lady friend. She's talking about visiting in a few months, and maybe trying to move out next march, but only staying for a year. She's very devoted to her family, and I'm not sure whether I can even ask her to move her. I moved here with a purpose, she's simply moving here for me, and I don't think that's enough. I love her to pieces, but then I have done for years. I just don't think she'll enjoy Vancouver as much as I do, and I don't know if I can wait another 6 months, to spend a year with someone who's then going to move away again. It's difficult, do I stop something now, because if things do go well, but then she leaves, it'll have been another year and a half, and huge heartache, or do I just go with it and see where it leads?
Enough crappy, emotional questions, I've just got to enjoy what I'm doing right now, which is drinking a glass of wine and watching War of the Worlds in HD, and looking out over Vancouver. Like I said, I've really not felt happier for years, just need to get myself to the gym
Managed to get sunburnt yesterday, reading a book on the beach, then got rained on a lot today, I love this place
Peace to you all, hope things are going well, and a bit more simple
Spent the last 3 weeks in london, trying to see as much of my friends and family as possible, but didn't do nearly as well as I'd hoped. Wanted to see vortext, bit gutted I didn't, but I did get to see Mark_plus_Beer, which was damn good.
Went to two weddings, which were both totally beautiful in their own way, one of which I was an usher at.
But, now, I'm sat here, high up in my flat, watching my lovely large tv, missing people, especially my Girly friend, whom Mark met, and wondering, yet again, what the fuck I'm doing. Actually, that's not entirely true. I feel I should be wondering what I'm doing, but in all truth, now I'm back in Canada, I'm really, really happy.
There's something about this place, this city, that makes me feel truly relaxed and like I can do anything, and everything, I want to. The last time I remember feeling like this was when I was 21, and at uni, and felt the whole world was mine to do with what I pleased (although now I have more money to make things actually happen).
I'm not sure what is going to happen with the lady friend. She's talking about visiting in a few months, and maybe trying to move out next march, but only staying for a year. She's very devoted to her family, and I'm not sure whether I can even ask her to move her. I moved here with a purpose, she's simply moving here for me, and I don't think that's enough. I love her to pieces, but then I have done for years. I just don't think she'll enjoy Vancouver as much as I do, and I don't know if I can wait another 6 months, to spend a year with someone who's then going to move away again. It's difficult, do I stop something now, because if things do go well, but then she leaves, it'll have been another year and a half, and huge heartache, or do I just go with it and see where it leads?
Enough crappy, emotional questions, I've just got to enjoy what I'm doing right now, which is drinking a glass of wine and watching War of the Worlds in HD, and looking out over Vancouver. Like I said, I've really not felt happier for years, just need to get myself to the gym
Managed to get sunburnt yesterday, reading a book on the beach, then got rained on a lot today, I love this place
Peace to you all, hope things are going well, and a bit more simple
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was good to see you and your girl seems lovely. x