So, I keep getting the phone calls from my friend in Vegas who is GM of one of the bigger clubs out there. "Come out and bartend for me. You'll make tons of tips! Just come out every other weekend, blah, blah, blah." You know, he's got me thinking about it. He said that a bad night there is $300 in tips alone. Now, if...
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We all give out of love. All of us. If you didn't give out of love you would be deceiving yourself. I give alot to my situation because that's what necessary right now to help it along.
Everyone just wants to feel loved. Even those who say that it dosen't matter, or that life goes on without it. They are especially full of shit. Everybody...
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Everyone just wants to feel loved. Even those who say that it dosen't matter, or that life goes on without it. They are especially full of shit. Everybody...
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eblaz007:
sounds like way to much work! here we go again, another step in the wrong direction, let life begin, its not broke, its the wrong connection!its not a sin, everyone has their own addiction. so dont give in, pain is just a self affliction! we cant make a square peg fit in a round hole? can we?
marloski:
you gotta go with your gut feeling...but don't let yourself get hurt in the process! i hope everything works out for you guys and if it's meant to be then it will!
So, the infamous email arrived today from Missy Suicide. They got all my info and are just waiting on my first photo set. Apparently it can take a month or more before you see your set go up online once they actually receive it. So, maybe for 2005 there will be some racy lacy pics of Dani girl up and autoplayin!
Hopefully Mr. Pants will...
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marloski:
good luck with your set!!! 
lyingstones:
oh, no. i am absolutely willing to see where things go with k. i didn't mean it to sound as if i was gonna drop the whole thing. and honesty is the only way i know to deal with anything! the journal entry was really just me getting my thoughts on the situation straight, so i can be up front and honest, without getting incredibly tongue tied and stupid, which happens more often than i'd like.
i do plan on spilling everything. i have no problem what so ever with talking about my past relationships, unless it makes her uncomfortable. i do really like her, and i'm not thinking in the slightest that this is a bad idea. but i do know where i am. i know how crappily things could turn out if that gets in the way. i really do know what i need to do, i still just feel wierd.
and as for the other 'chica', i'm done with that. i'm tired of being a friend of convenience as j puts it. even when we dated, it was rather ambiguous and casual, so it's not like i'm tied to anything there.
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and good luck with your set! you and mr pants should let me know if you need help with anything.
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i do plan on spilling everything. i have no problem what so ever with talking about my past relationships, unless it makes her uncomfortable. i do really like her, and i'm not thinking in the slightest that this is a bad idea. but i do know where i am. i know how crappily things could turn out if that gets in the way. i really do know what i need to do, i still just feel wierd.
and as for the other 'chica', i'm done with that. i'm tired of being a friend of convenience as j puts it. even when we dated, it was rather ambiguous and casual, so it's not like i'm tied to anything there.
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and good luck with your set! you and mr pants should let me know if you need help with anything.
[Edited on Nov 30, 2004 8:43PM]
Please, no pictures of ex-girlfriends.......please......
lyingstones:
no, i wouldn't leave them up. keep them sure, maybe. i have tons of pictures of exes. not on my wall though. and if they'd fucked me over in some way, definitely not.
Only 14 short days until me and Mr. Pants are on a plane to Seattle. I'm soooooooo completely and totally psyched!!!!! 
Four glorious uninterrupted days of Pants time! 
I'll also be working on my left sleeve and am so excited about spending hours under the influence of the tattoo gun! 
Hey, Mr. Pants, if you don't start on trying to catch up soon I think...
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Four glorious uninterrupted days of Pants time! I'll also be working on my left sleeve and am so excited about spending hours under the influence of the tattoo gun! Hey, Mr. Pants, if you don't start on trying to catch up soon I think... Read More
lyingstones:
awesome. hopefully you won't have any sticky clothing mishaps with this one... what else are you doing?
So, today is another day of deep thought. What should a person get out of their relationship? I mean, if you have a significant other and you have an exclusive relationship, what should you get out of it? I don't mean materialistically or monetarily. I mean, emotionally and mentally and physically. I know respect, trust and communication are all required elements. I respect and I...
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sharon:
don't worry...it will give you wrinkles 
just kidding. things will work out, keep your chin up and stay positive
just kidding. things will work out, keep your chin up and stay positive 
gatodeville:
i wish my ex felt that way, after 3 years, we had a few bad months... and then she's over the whole realtionship but since she doesn't feel that way, i get to meet someone who does, and have single time in the mean time
it is my experience that every relationship waxes and wains, like the tides, it just sucks when it waxes and wains at the same time, like if you want intimacy and the other person needs space...
I agree about patience, to be cliche, Rome wasn't built in a day. and i bet those brick buildings had to be constantly maintained!!
I wish you the best!
but since she doesn't feel that way, i get to meet someone who does, and have single time in the mean time
it is my experience that every relationship waxes and wains, like the tides, it just sucks when it waxes and wains at the same time, like if you want intimacy and the other person needs space...
I agree about patience, to be cliche, Rome wasn't built in a day. and i bet those brick buildings had to be constantly maintained!!
I wish you the best!
My shirt just stuck to my new nipple tattoos and I pulled it off and now there is blood........real blood.......fuck....... 
lyingstones:
holy crap! i'm sorry! that sucks. how was your thanksgiving other than that?
Some ABQ guy just sent me a chat request and his photo is a close up of his huge penis.......... That's just wrong......... If any of my single friends want his link, let me know..........
Thanksgiving is so weird, huh? I mean, one of my friends kinda put it best the other night. "It's really dumb that the whole country celebrates a whole bunch of Indians getting slaughtered." Guess I never really looked at it like that. I guess for me it's always been a time when I get to eat some good stuff and be with my family. This...
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Things can survive on occasional presence alone, huh? 
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sharon:
sometimes it can...I tend to destroy things even when I'm not there, it all depends on how bad you want it. 
jspooky:
Yes, but they don't always come out the same.
MLF
MLF
Oh, and I almost forgot! Got my sg "model" profile done, and sent off my release and identification stuff today. So, all that's left is my photo set. Mr. Pants and I are taking a little vacation to Seattle in a few weeks so I can get my left sleeve finished by Fernando Munoz, who fucking rocks the socks in the tattooing. Once we are...
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lyingstones:
awesome. i can't wait to see it. them. the set and the tattoo.
O.K., so Lord Sonny D. tattooed me up some wicked stars on my nipples tonight. Wow, interesting to say the least. I was quite the trooper and sat still the entire almost two hours. I thought it was gonna hurt alot more than it did. The weird thing about tattooing nipples is that when you are tattooing on it, it kinda get's angry, and get's...
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~Nightmares~