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My heart is going through annihilation right now but I can't help but try to keep it together even though it's a losing battle... Eternal damnation we'll be a walk in the park compared to this

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How I have not told staff to shove themselves today when not listening to the only solution to their issue is near Christmas miracle levels of patience....patience I do not have right now

People suck

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2 days ago I was ready to give up, let it all go to shit, just so I could feel better.

Yesterday something changed....hell knows what but I'm now fighting (most likely a losing battle but hey I'm fighting) this hasn't happened before....this is weird

fayestrawberry:
There is definitely a kind of catharsis in giving up and self-destructing... But then you have to deal with whatever you did and piece your life back together after making things worse. I'm really glad to hear that something stopped you before that point. Keep fighting! We're all behind you.
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I think I'm still in shock, 10 years together, a wedding in the planning...all gone....shit

I think it's time for a scorched earth policy after moving the essentials.

New place, new me....shit I need a drink

fayestrawberry:
Oh wow. I'm so sorry. How are you feeling? What is your new place like?
fincho4:
The best way I can describe how I feel it is "I've seen happier train crashes" No idea on the new place, gotta ride out this one for a little bit unfortunately 
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And now within 24hrs it's all come tumbling down around me and I'm a fucking mess once more.

As the lyric goes: "Hello Darkness, my old friend..."