finch

i feel...ungood.

1 day to 1460 days.

sometimes it feels like it was forever ago. i think maybe it feels like it was forever ago because things are so different now that sometimes it's hard to remember how they were before. i wish it wasn't so hard to remember. nothing really ever comes easily to me. i wish at least that would.

i've got wonderful friends. i do. and i'm thankful for each and every one of you, even when i suck at keeping in touch with people; even when i think i've got too much shit for somebody to deal with; even when i feel absolutely alone i know that you're still there. thank you.

i only have one real regret, and i've fucked up a whole bunch of times. just one real regret, though, and no matter what i do i can't seem to get over it.

1460 days. the number just keeps getting bigger. people say that everything heals with time, with time you feel better. i don't think things get better, really, i just think you get used to them. i'm tired of being used to the way things are. i want things to change.

1460 days. too many days.