pain. copious amounts of pain...
I hate being female.
On a Sidenote,
I heard from TimAgain who's currently stationed in Africa. (he's also gone grey.)
Yea. He says hi and that he misses the site and stuff..We may soon have a system to put him back up on Sg and post again. Hopefully it'll work.
I changed my life today.
I was supposed to go to an interview and chose not to.
(If I got the job, which would be part time, i'd be moving down there and having to find housing and a secondary position to afford to live. I moved 7 times between three states in 2004, I've already moved once in 2005. I'm just tired of hopping from this to that without a plan. So I didn't go. I don't have a plan here either, but I figure that it won'thurt too badly to just set for abit and breathe... Maybe i'll get some of my strength back.
it's more because I don't wanna relocate again. maybe i'm just lazy? because I don't really wanna be here and there's no particular reason, I just don't wanna be here but honestly, here isn't that bad of a place. there's a low crime rate, I feel comfortable out and about by myself. it doesn't cost ten arms and a couple of legs to live (well it does, but not as much as it does south of me alittle bit) I've the beach all of ten minutes away because I have to go down to the bridge and I'm in the area everyone comes to relax.
I've either got it all set up asside from an income or I'm justifying it to myself to not go, to not pursue something greater than myself, to settle and rot. i'm afraid I might be doing that. But I need to set and think for abit... get my strength back and figure out what's going on in my head. And in my heart.
I hate being female.
On a Sidenote,
I heard from TimAgain who's currently stationed in Africa. (he's also gone grey.)
Yea. He says hi and that he misses the site and stuff..We may soon have a system to put him back up on Sg and post again. Hopefully it'll work.
I changed my life today.
I was supposed to go to an interview and chose not to.
(If I got the job, which would be part time, i'd be moving down there and having to find housing and a secondary position to afford to live. I moved 7 times between three states in 2004, I've already moved once in 2005. I'm just tired of hopping from this to that without a plan. So I didn't go. I don't have a plan here either, but I figure that it won'thurt too badly to just set for abit and breathe... Maybe i'll get some of my strength back.
it's more because I don't wanna relocate again. maybe i'm just lazy? because I don't really wanna be here and there's no particular reason, I just don't wanna be here but honestly, here isn't that bad of a place. there's a low crime rate, I feel comfortable out and about by myself. it doesn't cost ten arms and a couple of legs to live (well it does, but not as much as it does south of me alittle bit) I've the beach all of ten minutes away because I have to go down to the bridge and I'm in the area everyone comes to relax.
I've either got it all set up asside from an income or I'm justifying it to myself to not go, to not pursue something greater than myself, to settle and rot. i'm afraid I might be doing that. But I need to set and think for abit... get my strength back and figure out what's going on in my head. And in my heart.
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i see a pic of you on the wall . cool