figmentation

Bad dreams last night. bad bad. I think I scared my boyfriend by telling him... he wouldn't be the first to think I'm weird or odd. oh well. that's life. when you are who you are folks don't always like it.

I read a post on here earlier, I think it was in the boards but I don't have time to find it now... Anyways, it was a female who was ranting about how someone had told them something and the person took it as "you're too weird and outlandish for acceptable society." and so on... What I don't understand with statements like that is does the person really want you to be just like them or are they just unsure what to do with you when you're not? Do you show them a part of themselves that they may not appricate or embrace adn therefore label you as the outcast to keep themselves from feeling badly?

I'm not really sure when the answer is. I'm nicknamed a hippy, though it's not what I am, nor do I understand the reasoning behind the title/description.

I want to go out into the hills today. I have a paper to write and I once again need to find a job. I told a friend I'd help move boxes and such today as is his moving day. I'm missing the beaches and swamps of florida. It's ecology and land... I know if I were there, i'd miss the dryest hills of california. (it's hard to hike in flatlands)

I'm realizing that I'm not on my own yet. and that I won't be till I'm financially viable and stable. That's a hard pill to swallow. (god. I need work) Time to clean up and go move stuff.

kisses
~Figment