figmentation

I've figured out my issue. The reason I havn't quite settled in yet is because I still feel like I'm visiting. Like I'm gonna go home to texas in a few weeks and this is all a dream. It's really kinda hard. ya. creates issues with bonding and such. (which I've always had, more pronounced in the past few years because I move so freaking much.)

I won't tell you I'm not feeling as connected as I could be, but I am. and it's the hardest part about moving and being transient.