"Which one of us will burn until the end" (New Found Glory)
Brian and I had a truly disheartening conversation in which he said that we need to act more like friends (aka, no kissing or hugging hello or goodbye), but of course, sex is different. It's just a lust thing. Just one more relationship that is officially over. I get what he is saying, like if we do those little things, it will make things harder when one of us actually finds someone else. But that means he shouldn't want to sleep with me, right? Am I completely missing something in this whole relationship game? I was stupid to feel bad about hanging out with other guys then, as Brian said that he knew that since I was the good-looking one of the two of us, I would have the first opportunities to meet guys and leave him alone. Well, if he wasn't so ridiculously hard on me, he and I could work things out. But he'll wait again until I find someone else and then put me through the emotional ringer. Not again. Decisions have been made and it's time for me to move on with dating and being more willing to talk to other guys.
"I wont deny, I took a part in never wanting you back" (New Found Glory).
I actually needed to get a doctor's note to GO to work...Part-time for two weeks is what we decided because I still need to keep my foot elevated as it is still sore. I never had one that said I couldn't, but my stupid company insist I get one from the ER. They were actually going to charge me an office visit for a check on my fracture. I was like, um, I fractured it Friday, it doesn't need to be re-examined. I just need a NOTE! Finally a sane nurse there figured it out. Alicia said that her and I are going to catch up on the movies that we have been meaning to see. She's a sweetie.
I worked out my arms and abs tonight. Good to keep some of my body in shape. Eating right is very important now that I am not able to do cardio.
Bummed out yet again tonight, but there has to be an end to this slump in sight.
Until tomorrow-
Primadonna
Brian and I had a truly disheartening conversation in which he said that we need to act more like friends (aka, no kissing or hugging hello or goodbye), but of course, sex is different. It's just a lust thing. Just one more relationship that is officially over. I get what he is saying, like if we do those little things, it will make things harder when one of us actually finds someone else. But that means he shouldn't want to sleep with me, right? Am I completely missing something in this whole relationship game? I was stupid to feel bad about hanging out with other guys then, as Brian said that he knew that since I was the good-looking one of the two of us, I would have the first opportunities to meet guys and leave him alone. Well, if he wasn't so ridiculously hard on me, he and I could work things out. But he'll wait again until I find someone else and then put me through the emotional ringer. Not again. Decisions have been made and it's time for me to move on with dating and being more willing to talk to other guys.
"I wont deny, I took a part in never wanting you back" (New Found Glory).
I actually needed to get a doctor's note to GO to work...Part-time for two weeks is what we decided because I still need to keep my foot elevated as it is still sore. I never had one that said I couldn't, but my stupid company insist I get one from the ER. They were actually going to charge me an office visit for a check on my fracture. I was like, um, I fractured it Friday, it doesn't need to be re-examined. I just need a NOTE! Finally a sane nurse there figured it out. Alicia said that her and I are going to catch up on the movies that we have been meaning to see. She's a sweetie.
I worked out my arms and abs tonight. Good to keep some of my body in shape. Eating right is very important now that I am not able to do cardio.
Bummed out yet again tonight, but there has to be an end to this slump in sight.
Until tomorrow-
Primadonna
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You need to srart wearing a Happy Bunny t-shirt that says BOYS STINK!