I miss that old skool love
Not quite that do-right love
Your love was fine
But never on time
Your steady on my mind
Still miss that old skool love
Not quite that right-one love
I don't want you back
But I'll never love the same way again
Divine Brown - Old Skool Love
***EDIT***
My mind is driving me CRAZY, I think I just need a new fucking life all together. There really is no way to sort through all the shit and come out with anything I wanted and planned for.
Oh and by the way....FUCK YOU to everyone on my mind right now. I hate being caught in the middle. I hate not being able to do the things that make ME happy. I understand that life isn't only about you but for fuck sakes my life has been about everyone else but me for far too long.
My days off fucking KILL me. Everything that was suppose to happy today didn't. I'm RETARDED and set my alarm for 8pm instead of 8am and we didn't get to do the new set for PSW.
I did dye my hair but there was no change at all!
My car was broken so I was stranded at home.
I did however get to hang out with my brother and I tried to paint but that didn't fucking work out like usual.
In some way I am just so sick and tired of the people in my life, I hate my job and I feel like I'm going NOWHERE. I'm ready to pull out all my freaking hair and just die because honestly I keep walked around in circles trying all the while to make things better but nothing ever gets fixed or better. I am so jealous of all the people I went to school with now....I got asked the other day "oh is this your summer job?"...uh no (hangs head in shame) I've been here for about a year.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
In a wonderful world:
1. GOOD THINGS WOULD HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE
2. I would be able to get a good enough job without having to
apply for a second one and potentially work 16 hours a day five days a week to support myself and my brother.
3. I would be able to paint and actually feel creative and driven to do so unlike now.
4. I would be able to get school loans so I could...get this...actually BETTER myself and be a good contributer to soceity and hold a good job. Thanks for that extra help there Mr. Government.
5. I would be able to have all my good friends back. My real friends who actually give two shits.
6. People I love wouldn't leave me (this is no offence to you)
7. THINGS WOULD MAKE SENSE
Honestly I've been trying so hard to be happy, and to look at the good things in life and stuff like that but then there are just times when things crash back down and drown you again. I know I disppoint you and I'm sorry. (that was to you)
Not quite that do-right love
Your love was fine
But never on time
Your steady on my mind
Still miss that old skool love
Not quite that right-one love
I don't want you back
But I'll never love the same way again
Divine Brown - Old Skool Love
***EDIT***
My mind is driving me CRAZY, I think I just need a new fucking life all together. There really is no way to sort through all the shit and come out with anything I wanted and planned for.
Oh and by the way....FUCK YOU to everyone on my mind right now. I hate being caught in the middle. I hate not being able to do the things that make ME happy. I understand that life isn't only about you but for fuck sakes my life has been about everyone else but me for far too long.
My days off fucking KILL me. Everything that was suppose to happy today didn't. I'm RETARDED and set my alarm for 8pm instead of 8am and we didn't get to do the new set for PSW.
I did dye my hair but there was no change at all!
My car was broken so I was stranded at home.
I did however get to hang out with my brother and I tried to paint but that didn't fucking work out like usual.
In some way I am just so sick and tired of the people in my life, I hate my job and I feel like I'm going NOWHERE. I'm ready to pull out all my freaking hair and just die because honestly I keep walked around in circles trying all the while to make things better but nothing ever gets fixed or better. I am so jealous of all the people I went to school with now....I got asked the other day "oh is this your summer job?"...uh no (hangs head in shame) I've been here for about a year.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
In a wonderful world:
1. GOOD THINGS WOULD HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE
2. I would be able to get a good enough job without having to
apply for a second one and potentially work 16 hours a day five days a week to support myself and my brother.
3. I would be able to paint and actually feel creative and driven to do so unlike now.
4. I would be able to get school loans so I could...get this...actually BETTER myself and be a good contributer to soceity and hold a good job. Thanks for that extra help there Mr. Government.
5. I would be able to have all my good friends back. My real friends who actually give two shits.
6. People I love wouldn't leave me (this is no offence to you)
7. THINGS WOULD MAKE SENSE
Honestly I've been trying so hard to be happy, and to look at the good things in life and stuff like that but then there are just times when things crash back down and drown you again. I know I disppoint you and I'm sorry. (that was to you)
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well i don't want to be selfish about asking about stuff for me, so if you need to talk then you can talk to me. i know we don't know each other that well but i listen pretty well.
so whenever you have time you can let me know info.
good luck sweetie