Hey there everyone, it's like 5am and I can't sleep because I have too many things on my mind...so here I am to update for you.
First of all here are some awesome drawings that Dani(hopefully it's ok that I call her that) did for me, she's so great I love them to death!
And in other news...regarding the new ink
I got "Silent Beauty" written because I think that a great deal of my beauty is well...silent. I mean honeslty I have never been and will never be one of those girls who can walk down the street and turn heads. I've spent so many years of my life being this monster and really that has just changed in the past year. No one even believes me when I say it but honestly I was so monsterous in highschool. Really I was...I weighted 260 and I have a little frame, I'm 5'4. I had HORRIBLE acne that I had to get professional treatment for...I mean pimples upon pimples. I had bad hair, a pixie cut that made me look...uh just...I don't even wanna tell you. To make it worse I dyed it blue black which with my fair skin looked sickly. Really it just wasn't a good thing.
So now, it really is my opinon that the only people who actually see my real beauty are the ones that see the silent beauty, like the beauty that they only get to know once they're my friend and they are close to me. Once they know what makes me tick. What makes me cry, or how I fall all over myself because I'm so clumsy, how I do insane impressions when I tell stories just to make people laugh, how I get bitter when things hurt me to try to protect myself instead of showing people how really hurt or scared I actually am. All these things that make me who I am and that so many people don't even take the time to see.
Everyone is like that. I hardly believe in regrets...but one of mine is that for so long I was so hurt by every single thing in my life that I let no one at all close to me. That why I couldn't get hurt. And any time anyone ever did want to be close to me I would push them away and build these huge walls to keep them out. But in doing so, I not only didn't let them know me but I kept myself from knowing so many of them.
Meh...anyways...that should explain it.
Either way I think it's pretty and I'm in love with it!
First of all here are some awesome drawings that Dani(hopefully it's ok that I call her that) did for me, she's so great I love them to death!
And in other news...regarding the new ink
I got "Silent Beauty" written because I think that a great deal of my beauty is well...silent. I mean honeslty I have never been and will never be one of those girls who can walk down the street and turn heads. I've spent so many years of my life being this monster and really that has just changed in the past year. No one even believes me when I say it but honestly I was so monsterous in highschool. Really I was...I weighted 260 and I have a little frame, I'm 5'4. I had HORRIBLE acne that I had to get professional treatment for...I mean pimples upon pimples. I had bad hair, a pixie cut that made me look...uh just...I don't even wanna tell you. To make it worse I dyed it blue black which with my fair skin looked sickly. Really it just wasn't a good thing.
So now, it really is my opinon that the only people who actually see my real beauty are the ones that see the silent beauty, like the beauty that they only get to know once they're my friend and they are close to me. Once they know what makes me tick. What makes me cry, or how I fall all over myself because I'm so clumsy, how I do insane impressions when I tell stories just to make people laugh, how I get bitter when things hurt me to try to protect myself instead of showing people how really hurt or scared I actually am. All these things that make me who I am and that so many people don't even take the time to see.
Everyone is like that. I hardly believe in regrets...but one of mine is that for so long I was so hurt by every single thing in my life that I let no one at all close to me. That why I couldn't get hurt. And any time anyone ever did want to be close to me I would push them away and build these huge walls to keep them out. But in doing so, I not only didn't let them know me but I kept myself from knowing so many of them.
Meh...anyways...that should explain it.
Either way I think it's pretty and I'm in love with it!
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fatality:
I love how those pictures depict your hair - which is such a great feature of yours!
brinny:
i miss you 