I am in LOVE with Venice.....she's shy and intelligent....I'm such a sucker for intelligent and cultured people I think they are so brilliantly sexy. It's not even because she's hot which she rightfully is. It's because that in a way even though she's done suicidegirls she hasn't tried to be anyone else. Like she didn't have to go all out for her sexy and act wild and crazy just because that's how the other girls are. Her set was so simple...her...on a chair. And it was beautiful. Simplicity is gorgeous sometimes.
Please understand I'm not trying to downplay any of the other suicide girls, I love you all very very much. I didn't mean that you just act wild and crazy for the site I meant that you are in real life. I just meant that I was impressed because she didn't feel the need to live up to that.
why do thing have to constantly suck...
can I have a little bit of a break...just one?
One day I'll learn just not to give a fuck...
From a comment I made earlier tonight:
I used to be the most hopeful little thing you could ever meet.
I had all these plans, all these dreams...but now reality is breaking me down. I have more tears than I have smiles and more scars from my fights with life than I care to count anymore. I know what I want and I've been fighting for it for too long. So long that I'm losing my drive. And every time I find something...a glimmer for hope or happiness...I let my guard down and I end up in the exact same place. Alone...and cold...waiting....wanting...anything other than this.
*UPDATE*
I'm outs for like...I dunno five days or something. I might be able to check the site but don't count on comments and stuff I'm going to TO tomorrow for the SG meet and then to hang out with friends for the next little while. I need a break from this place so badly and from work. I want to win the lottery so then I'll have enough money to go to school and live where I want, in some big city where people are more cultured and I can be free to run amongst the galleries and go to museums and theaters.
One happy thing...I'm going to the AGO on monday by myself, so I can spend the whole entire day there amongst all the beautiful work. I'm not bringing anyone so I don't have to rush through it or explain a billion things as to why the pieces are worth as much as they are. YAY!
*UPDATE TWO*
I feel powerless and I don't know what's going on. I feel out of the loop and I hate this. I can't not be in control. Call it a complex call it whatever. I need to plan and I need to know...BAH! I feel like people are playing with me....but tomorrow I head out for the gorgeous TO...and fun times with Lee and my first SG meet ever! I'm leaving all my bullshit behind, all the people that make me feel so exhausted...CYA SUCKAS LATER!!!
Please understand I'm not trying to downplay any of the other suicide girls, I love you all very very much. I didn't mean that you just act wild and crazy for the site I meant that you are in real life. I just meant that I was impressed because she didn't feel the need to live up to that.
why do thing have to constantly suck...
can I have a little bit of a break...just one?
One day I'll learn just not to give a fuck...
From a comment I made earlier tonight:
I used to be the most hopeful little thing you could ever meet.
I had all these plans, all these dreams...but now reality is breaking me down. I have more tears than I have smiles and more scars from my fights with life than I care to count anymore. I know what I want and I've been fighting for it for too long. So long that I'm losing my drive. And every time I find something...a glimmer for hope or happiness...I let my guard down and I end up in the exact same place. Alone...and cold...waiting....wanting...anything other than this.
*UPDATE*
I'm outs for like...I dunno five days or something. I might be able to check the site but don't count on comments and stuff I'm going to TO tomorrow for the SG meet and then to hang out with friends for the next little while. I need a break from this place so badly and from work. I want to win the lottery so then I'll have enough money to go to school and live where I want, in some big city where people are more cultured and I can be free to run amongst the galleries and go to museums and theaters.
One happy thing...I'm going to the AGO on monday by myself, so I can spend the whole entire day there amongst all the beautiful work. I'm not bringing anyone so I don't have to rush through it or explain a billion things as to why the pieces are worth as much as they are. YAY!
*UPDATE TWO*
I feel powerless and I don't know what's going on. I feel out of the loop and I hate this. I can't not be in control. Call it a complex call it whatever. I need to plan and I need to know...BAH! I feel like people are playing with me....but tomorrow I head out for the gorgeous TO...and fun times with Lee and my first SG meet ever! I'm leaving all my bullshit behind, all the people that make me feel so exhausted...CYA SUCKAS LATER!!!
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1983boy:
hey doll, thanks for the feed back, i really appreciate it. I defiinitly think your sets are very hot too, baby. 
conqueringking:
Life seems to have this sadistic purpose.. Its like it finds the best and the brightest of people and drags them. I know exactly how you feel. I realize that some people have this ying-double yang thing going.(I'm one of them) for every good thing that happens 2 bad things happen to knock you off balance. I would say it gets better but, I still haven't got my good break yet,so I just don't know. I do know that if you're lucky it will. Just remember to have fun whenever possible despite what happens, and don't let anyone take advantage of you. You don't owe anyone anything but, yourself. Enjoy yourself this weekend you deserve it.