So I had a pretty awesome day/night. I went shopping with Bess today which was really good. We've known each other for like pfft ten years or something and have been super close the entire time. So on the drive down to Barrie we talked about just everything that's bin goin on with her and with me. It was awesome to just get some shit out.
One of the main reasons I miss Ty so much is because he used to be that person. I told him everything and he always just listened and understood I completely miss that. Because I'm not that comfy with everyone else.
Either way, we went down looking for costumes for Halloween, it's manditory that we dress up for work and I work that entire day! BOOOOOO *lol I ended up buying these AMAZING boarding pants....they look so fuckin good on me it's crazy. They're guys pants but as soon as I tried them on I was just like the hell with this, these puppies are awesome! I also found a really awesome brown Split hoodie that I picked up. I was all super worried about spending money (I've been SUPER saving for going back to school even though it probably wont happen) because I went shopping monday as well. But decided these pants were too great to pass up.
Then I went to work, I had awesome people on my side and a great closing team! Me Bess and Chris! It sucked that I had to be there until 2am but what can ya do. I made pretty good money so I can't complain. After work I hung out with Chris and Bess. It's so strange, all they want to do is go...get out and travel. They don't give a shit if they have nothing. They just want to go and experience everything. I think that's so brave in a way. In a way I could see that being completely awesome but I know I could never do it. They want to just leave and all I can think about is school and art and I dunno...right now their planning a big road trip out west and Chris is going to England in March, they're both crazy and meet awesome people where ever they go so I know they'll have an awesome time.
Came home...more bad news...not only am I having the worst time getting this fuckin transcript....I only got a $4000 loan from OSAP which really is nothing considering now much tuition books, supplies and rent would be. Not to mention just regular things. When I was in college before I spent $3000 on supplies ALONE!
So now we know for sure...I'm not going. And now I have absolutely NO direction at all....seriously right now I just want someone to tell me what to do because I don't get it. I don't understand what I do wrong....BLAH!!!!!
One of the main reasons I miss Ty so much is because he used to be that person. I told him everything and he always just listened and understood I completely miss that. Because I'm not that comfy with everyone else.
Either way, we went down looking for costumes for Halloween, it's manditory that we dress up for work and I work that entire day! BOOOOOO *lol I ended up buying these AMAZING boarding pants....they look so fuckin good on me it's crazy. They're guys pants but as soon as I tried them on I was just like the hell with this, these puppies are awesome! I also found a really awesome brown Split hoodie that I picked up. I was all super worried about spending money (I've been SUPER saving for going back to school even though it probably wont happen) because I went shopping monday as well. But decided these pants were too great to pass up.
Then I went to work, I had awesome people on my side and a great closing team! Me Bess and Chris! It sucked that I had to be there until 2am but what can ya do. I made pretty good money so I can't complain. After work I hung out with Chris and Bess. It's so strange, all they want to do is go...get out and travel. They don't give a shit if they have nothing. They just want to go and experience everything. I think that's so brave in a way. In a way I could see that being completely awesome but I know I could never do it. They want to just leave and all I can think about is school and art and I dunno...right now their planning a big road trip out west and Chris is going to England in March, they're both crazy and meet awesome people where ever they go so I know they'll have an awesome time.
Came home...more bad news...not only am I having the worst time getting this fuckin transcript....I only got a $4000 loan from OSAP which really is nothing considering now much tuition books, supplies and rent would be. Not to mention just regular things. When I was in college before I spent $3000 on supplies ALONE!
So now we know for sure...I'm not going. And now I have absolutely NO direction at all....seriously right now I just want someone to tell me what to do because I don't get it. I don't understand what I do wrong....BLAH!!!!!
anyways, art is, i think, something you never stop learning in- your work kind of evolves as you get older, change, you find ways of doing things that suit you, but then that changes and adapts to your life, as does what you desire to express, even subjectively speaking. my stuff used to be really messy and expressive, mostly black and white, i siad i'd never do really straight portraiture- and now. . . i do mostly pretty straight colour portraiture- which i love.
oh, check out my journal, i linked to a few studies from the last month or so, cause people kept asking. i'm working on a much larger, more refined piece at the moment of the same girl, that i think is one of the best things i've ever painted. i can't wait to get it finished though, i'm on such an artistiuc roll i'm already like 'what next? what next?' you know?
ah well, have a great weekend, and a fantastic halloween