Jesus Christ Mother Fucker
So since I've been applying to school I've been waiting and waiting for this Permanent Student Code which when you are a student in Quebec you are automatically assigned. You also need this code in order to apply for studend loans.
Since I wasn't born here I had to apply for one. I was just given the information on how to do so on November 29th when I was emailed my offer for admissions. I filled out the online form and had yet to recieve anything so I called an academic advisor today to see what was up. APPARENTLY it takes FOUR FUCKING WEEKS to get this goddamn code.
I am running out of money FAST here. I have to hand in my letter of confirmation before December 15th. And I am unable to attend university without a loan period. So I call the financial aid office and they inform me that I can send in the documents in paper form however it will still be 4-8 weeks before I hear back as to whether or not I get the loan and for how much.
So basically by the time I hear if I get the loan it's the due date or past the due date to drop classes and tuition is due. Which leaves me VERY screwed if I don't get it. I'll owe the university about $3000.00 plus books plus whatever other fees they decide to send my way AND I will again not be on my way to getting a degree.
This is fucking White Mountain Academy all over again.
...........why does this situation always have so many ways of making everything so utterly hopeless.........
FUCK YOU to all the people whos familys pay for their education
FUCK YOU to all the people in university wasting time while trying to decide what they want to do
FUCK YOU to all the students who don't give a damn and JUST pass all their classes while spending the majority of their free time partying it up
FUCK YOU to all those unworthy people who get all these mother fucking chances when they don't deserve them
FUCK YOU to our school systems and government who seem to repeatedly SHIT all over my dreams
and honestly....FUCK ME to getting my damn hopes up, fuck me for dreaming beyond my means, fuck me because I probably should have given up so long ago....I just for the life of me can't seem to figure out how.
When I woke up I had no idea this day would be filled with so many tears.
To top everything off my Debbie may have cancer. She told me she was going for tests the other night but hasn't call me back. My Debbie is my grandad's latest wife but I've known her for years because in elementary school she was my best friends mom. She may not be blood but she means a hell of a lot more to me than most of my family.
So since I've been applying to school I've been waiting and waiting for this Permanent Student Code which when you are a student in Quebec you are automatically assigned. You also need this code in order to apply for studend loans.
Since I wasn't born here I had to apply for one. I was just given the information on how to do so on November 29th when I was emailed my offer for admissions. I filled out the online form and had yet to recieve anything so I called an academic advisor today to see what was up. APPARENTLY it takes FOUR FUCKING WEEKS to get this goddamn code.
I am running out of money FAST here. I have to hand in my letter of confirmation before December 15th. And I am unable to attend university without a loan period.
So I call the financial aid office and they inform me that I can send in the documents in paper form however it will still be 4-8 weeks before I hear back as to whether or not I get the loan and for how much.
So basically by the time I hear if I get the loan it's the due date or past the due date to drop classes and tuition is due. Which leaves me VERY screwed if I don't get it. I'll owe the university about $3000.00 plus books plus whatever other fees they decide to send my way AND I will again not be on my way to getting a degree.
This is fucking White Mountain Academy all over again.
...........why does this situation always have so many ways of making everything so utterly hopeless.........
FUCK YOU to all the people whos familys pay for their education
FUCK YOU to all the people in university wasting time while trying to decide what they want to do
FUCK YOU to all the students who don't give a damn and JUST pass all their classes while spending the majority of their free time partying it up
FUCK YOU to all those unworthy people who get all these mother fucking chances when they don't deserve them
FUCK YOU to our school systems and government who seem to repeatedly SHIT all over my dreams
and honestly....FUCK ME to getting my damn hopes up, fuck me for dreaming beyond my means, fuck me because I probably should have given up so long ago....I just for the life of me can't seem to figure out how.
When I woke up I had no idea this day would be filled with so many tears.
To top everything off my Debbie may have cancer. She told me she was going for tests the other night but hasn't call me back. My Debbie is my grandad's latest wife but I've known her for years because in elementary school she was my best friends mom. She may not be blood but she means a hell of a lot more to me than most of my family.
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so i guess every country has its schooling problems... anyways, i feel that you are an exeptional girl and that you can pull out this thing!
smile, the sky is always blue.. no mater how gray the clouds are...