MONEY SUCKS...goodbye hopes and dreams
So we had a fight.
His side, wanted to stand behind me and support me while I chase my dreams of an art education and hopefully amazing career. (I know I know, how could this be a fight? He is amazing)
My side, not wanting to let him that close to me. My dreams are very sacred to me, this has always been my battle and my battle alone. I have a very hard time accepting help from others. Especially people who aren't really in a situation to give it to me. Also...my fear. After my previous education I've had a really really really hard time returning to school. I always get it but I can never get the funds together. I don't get student loans and am at my limit for what the bank will give me with a cosigner. So now....all it feels like is disappointment after disappointment I really have cried so many tears over this that they could fill an ocean.
Either way...people have been supporting me lately. People who I never really thought would. A couple of people have listened to me and encouraged me, saying that there is always a way. Which lead me to go back to the site and do some reach. It's been a couple years since I've applied to Emily Carr.
The description of the portfolio scares me. *L I should have turned back there.
The first year I would be considered an International Student so the year, tuition, books and supplies would be about $12,000. The three years after that would be $7,000 each.
MOTHER FUCK
There is no way in goddamn hell I will be able to afford that. I live paycheck to paycheck.
PS - Please note that this isn't here to get comments like go for it and you can do it....cause believe me I've tried it just doesn't work. I really don't have the money for this shit.
So we had a fight.
His side, wanted to stand behind me and support me while I chase my dreams of an art education and hopefully amazing career. (I know I know, how could this be a fight? He is amazing)
My side, not wanting to let him that close to me. My dreams are very sacred to me, this has always been my battle and my battle alone. I have a very hard time accepting help from others. Especially people who aren't really in a situation to give it to me. Also...my fear. After my previous education I've had a really really really hard time returning to school. I always get it but I can never get the funds together. I don't get student loans and am at my limit for what the bank will give me with a cosigner. So now....all it feels like is disappointment after disappointment I really have cried so many tears over this that they could fill an ocean.
Either way...people have been supporting me lately. People who I never really thought would. A couple of people have listened to me and encouraged me, saying that there is always a way. Which lead me to go back to the site and do some reach. It's been a couple years since I've applied to Emily Carr.
The description of the portfolio scares me. *L I should have turned back there.
The first year I would be considered an International Student so the year, tuition, books and supplies would be about $12,000. The three years after that would be $7,000 each.
MOTHER FUCK
There is no way in goddamn hell I will be able to afford that. I live paycheck to paycheck.
PS - Please note that this isn't here to get comments like go for it and you can do it....cause believe me I've tried it just doesn't work. I really don't have the money for this shit.
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but I kind of know how you feel, I really want to go back to school and get my MFA but Im in so much debt right now and I cant even pay my bills right now.
I will say that I do understand what you mean about your money situation. I'm at a stage where I wouldn't mind taking some courses part-time, but don't have the money, and still owe on ancient student loans. So I can't do it, no matter how many people tell me to go for it.
But it seems that you have someone close to you who's able to help, unless I'm reading that wrong. That complicates things, because you'll be indebted to them, and it may hang over you while you pursue your goal. And that may taint it, at least in your mind. Wish I could give you some good advice.