So...I feel like a fucking complete heal here...
So, I have a girlfriend that I live with and love with all of my heart, that I actually want to spend the rest of my life with...however, there seems to be a part of me that has a HUGE crush on this other girl, a girl that we will just call "Samantha Josephine". I see her all of the time in the library that I normally go to to do work outside of home, and she normally sits on the other side of me in the cubical at the library. We have become friendly, exchanged names and have talked. Even last father's day, my family (dad, brother, sister, etc) unknowingly went to the restaurant that she works at, and we have been talking a lot ever sense then. She even let me do a quick portrait of her for one of my classes.
However, it wasn't until today, when she came into the library and sat down next to me (that is when I noticed that she was in here, I have been having MAJOR issues with Adobe and have been on their customer service chat page for the past two days now) and I looked up and wow...I don't think I have ever felt butterflies that in a LONG time.
Now, don't get me wrong, I am not going to try anything. I am very faithful and loyal to my girlfriend, whom I have been with for almost a year and a half now...but what the hell??? This sucks and I really don't like this...at all...lol.
Anyone have any suggestions on what to do? I am not going to stop coming to the library because this is where I seem to get the most work done, and I cannot, for the love of god, ask her to stop coming to the library or even to stop sitting next to me. that is just not my place to ask her to change her life style because of my situation. I don't know...I think I will just not think about things and just see if that allows for the butterflies to stop.
