Another day, another update.
I don't know what to say about shit right now. I am still depressed. I miss all of the little things, the holding of hands, the kisses, the cuddeling, the going out to dinners and just being happy. GOD I WANT THAT AGAIN. This, by far, has to be the worst breakup I have ever had in my life. I don't know what to do. I know that this is going to make me sould like a fucking pig, but I know that if I could find someone to fill that void in my life, that I would be happy again. I mean that is all that I want. I am just not the right person for everyone.
Here is a little something else from me, and edit/update.
I suffer from Depression. It is something that I battle with everyday without the aid of medication. Depression is a very real mental disorder. I hate it. I could have one of the best days in my life, but one little thing can trigger it. I wish for people who do not have this condission could understand how hard if is for people like me to go from day to day, trying to act "normal". That is one reason why if you ever see me in public, I will be the happy go lucky person, trying to make everyone laugh and be happy. Some times it is a mask, other times I have to force myself to be that way until eventually I can trick my mind into thinking that I am happy.
When I ask for someone to come over, I am not asking for a good time, I am asking for that for hope that I can make it through the night.
Now I did not tell you this for a pity party. It was simply ment to inform someone out there who doesn't know about depression, and to help you understand what I may be going though. Like rightnow, I wouldlike for someone to come over for a little bit I am a people person, and not being around people depresses me, as well as not haviing someone there that I can care for and love. I kow that I have my son Josh, and my daughter Zoe, but I don't mean to love and care for someone like I care and love them.
I just wish that I was able to get better, and I wish I could get that one person who I can love and care for, to help make me complete again.
I don't know what to say about shit right now. I am still depressed. I miss all of the little things, the holding of hands, the kisses, the cuddeling, the going out to dinners and just being happy. GOD I WANT THAT AGAIN. This, by far, has to be the worst breakup I have ever had in my life. I don't know what to do. I know that this is going to make me sould like a fucking pig, but I know that if I could find someone to fill that void in my life, that I would be happy again. I mean that is all that I want. I am just not the right person for everyone.
Here is a little something else from me, and edit/update.
I suffer from Depression. It is something that I battle with everyday without the aid of medication. Depression is a very real mental disorder. I hate it. I could have one of the best days in my life, but one little thing can trigger it. I wish for people who do not have this condission could understand how hard if is for people like me to go from day to day, trying to act "normal". That is one reason why if you ever see me in public, I will be the happy go lucky person, trying to make everyone laugh and be happy. Some times it is a mask, other times I have to force myself to be that way until eventually I can trick my mind into thinking that I am happy.
When I ask for someone to come over, I am not asking for a good time, I am asking for that for hope that I can make it through the night.
Now I did not tell you this for a pity party. It was simply ment to inform someone out there who doesn't know about depression, and to help you understand what I may be going though. Like rightnow, I wouldlike for someone to come over for a little bit I am a people person, and not being around people depresses me, as well as not haviing someone there that I can care for and love. I kow that I have my son Josh, and my daughter Zoe, but I don't mean to love and care for someone like I care and love them.
I just wish that I was able to get better, and I wish I could get that one person who I can love and care for, to help make me complete again.
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nena:
hehe, another one