: I am realizing how fake I was being at certain times when I thought I was being reel ...this is an extremely enlightening experience for me one like I have never ever had. It’s almost like .....I still can’t put my tongue on the word for it however it will come to me and I look forward to explaining it in fine detail.... Like us ...finely detailed individuals. There are things I hold myself back from doing and catch myself doing it this is how I am drawing a lot of my conclusions. I am madman posting my page because we are feeling this special feeling together..... not to look a certain way ...more like to be a certain way and that is fine living ...that is a style living that I always wanted to live but would either not allow myself to or would be forcefully getting held back. All this stuff I am saying right now ...I wouldn’t think twice about ever saying because I would be scared of the public perception, embarrassed to say it or trying to love too hard when it just simply was not there.
