farway

i can't think. i'm just too lazy these days. i don't know what the problem is. i start all my sentences with i.

i have this problem. actually, i don't know if i have a problem, but i seem to have a pattern. i always seem to get tired of things: places, jobs, friends, girlfriends. almost every girlfriend i have had i eventually decided that i wasn't happy and i would break up with them.

now i am with a girl, and we have been together for just over 6 months. things have always been pretty cool between us, but lately i've been kind of weird about it. and i don't want to go being me again and getting tired of her for no apparent reason and breaking up with her. but do i just think that things are weird because i feel like that is what i am supposed to do? i don't fucking know.

and i guess it doesn't really matter that much to me, but i'm not the only one involved. and now she is asking me what's wrong and why i am being all weird, so that makes me act even weirder. it's just not a good situation....