faeryrae

well things go from bad to worse. my uncle ron is back in jail. got in a high speed chase drunk off his ass with the cops and crashed into a fucking taco bell! he was out of jail less than a year and he is back. he just got out after 7 years. i am so fucking pissed. he finally is back in our lives and he fucks up again. he is 48 but acts like a 20 something: partying, drinking, smoking weed, having many girlfriends, etc. he had a good job was becoming a personal trainer was in a band as a bass player and was going to teach me how to play. and my aunt holly is acting like she knows him well and they are so close. which is bull shit since he never was around when she was growing up and was in jail a lot. i know him better since he lived with us so many times. she has bipolar and her manic stages are really bad she can be so bizzare. i am not sayign anything bad about bipolar i am just saying how my aunt is. she doesnt know how he is and who he is. she has no clue about anything and she doesnt know the shit my parents go through with my uncle's shit. the money we spend to help him, the heartache, him stealing from us, forgiving him, etc. all she does is talk to him once a month on the phone and a letter or two when he was in jail. nothing is means anything to her she tells everyone everyone's business, she cant keep a secret, i mean she told my whole family i was having sex and i needed to buy a pregancy test. she said i could convide in her and i did. now i know better. my family treated me like some whore. i only been with one guy in my life and at the time i loved him. now i wonder why i loved him with the way things are now. why am i pouring my heart out here? well no...there is something deep inside me that i cant get out and have no clue what it is. i cant remember when i last smiled.............