Man, I feel like I've done the one thing I didn't want to do. I think I pissed someone off.
Rah, I've just had the worst luck in the past few months and I've been so fucking off, and I try like hell to put on a smile and act like everything is ok, but I think I fucked up. I should know better than to post or try to talk to people when I'm in a foul mood because I take everything out on everyone who doesn't deserve it. I know I do that, but for some reason I didn't stop myself. I usually do, because I was taught the lesson of "say something nice or don't say anything at all", but I fucked up big time, I think.
To you, Alissa, if you're even reading this, I'm sorry. I must have bugged the hell out of you and I really really did not mean to. I didn't mean to be so... annoying, which I'm sure I must have been. It's seriously just now dawning on me how rude I've been, but I must say in my own defense that I've been incredibly preoccupied. So far this year is kicking my ass and then some, and I'm just overwhelmed.
I have all these moments where I just feel like breaking down and crying because there's just too much on my plate as well. I took my frustrations out on you, and that was not fair of me. I was in the wrong, and I am, again, very sorry. I hate how a few posts have the possibility of turning a potential friendship, and I wish I could take them back.
I could take this chance to go on and on about how much my life sucks right now, but I think I've said it all before and nobody really cares. (This is not a plea for people to be like "oooh I care you know I care" because we all know, in the end, people do care a bit, but not enough to really change anything, nor would it make me feel better, because it doesn't make the situation go away, although I do appreciate you guys taking notice.)
I dunno, maybe I need a vacation, although we can't afford one right now. If work doesn't pick up, I doubt I'll ever be able to take a vacation.
But again, I am truly sorry if I offended you or pissed you off, I accept full blame for what I did and I know I shouldn't have. I ask for your forgiveness and empathy to how bad things are for me right now and the state of mind I'm in. I'm not usually like this, I swear it.
And, of course, the obligatory button.
Call me!
Rah, I've just had the worst luck in the past few months and I've been so fucking off, and I try like hell to put on a smile and act like everything is ok, but I think I fucked up. I should know better than to post or try to talk to people when I'm in a foul mood because I take everything out on everyone who doesn't deserve it. I know I do that, but for some reason I didn't stop myself. I usually do, because I was taught the lesson of "say something nice or don't say anything at all", but I fucked up big time, I think.
To you, Alissa, if you're even reading this, I'm sorry. I must have bugged the hell out of you and I really really did not mean to. I didn't mean to be so... annoying, which I'm sure I must have been. It's seriously just now dawning on me how rude I've been, but I must say in my own defense that I've been incredibly preoccupied. So far this year is kicking my ass and then some, and I'm just overwhelmed.
I have all these moments where I just feel like breaking down and crying because there's just too much on my plate as well. I took my frustrations out on you, and that was not fair of me. I was in the wrong, and I am, again, very sorry. I hate how a few posts have the possibility of turning a potential friendship, and I wish I could take them back.
I could take this chance to go on and on about how much my life sucks right now, but I think I've said it all before and nobody really cares. (This is not a plea for people to be like "oooh I care you know I care" because we all know, in the end, people do care a bit, but not enough to really change anything, nor would it make me feel better, because it doesn't make the situation go away, although I do appreciate you guys taking notice.)
I dunno, maybe I need a vacation, although we can't afford one right now. If work doesn't pick up, I doubt I'll ever be able to take a vacation.
But again, I am truly sorry if I offended you or pissed you off, I accept full blame for what I did and I know I shouldn't have. I ask for your forgiveness and empathy to how bad things are for me right now and the state of mind I'm in. I'm not usually like this, I swear it.
And, of course, the obligatory button.
Call me!
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punknitemike:
at least you admitted your mistake and apologized, that alone shows character.
xerxes:
*hugs*
