i got home from work this morning and fell into my bed and im just waking up now....a whole day of nothing but beautiful sleep....i feel better...physically anyway...
i fell in love with jason and i shouldnt have...he doesnt feel the same way for me....he just wants someone to hangout with occassionally and to fuck...normally this wouldnt bother me at all...in fact i welcome relationships...
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i fell in love with jason and i shouldnt have...he doesnt feel the same way for me....he just wants someone to hangout with occassionally and to fuck...normally this wouldnt bother me at all...in fact i welcome relationships...
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quijybo:
do you have braid extensions? i saw some girl that resembled you on the bus the other day. 
joscelyne:
I'm just wondering how you are doing lately...
im not really all that sure where to begin this post...
life just kinda spun around 180 out of nowhere....you know its funny i actually thought things were beginning to look up....i guess i was wrong yet again...
im not really in the mood to delve into my heartbroken pathetic problems at the moment....dont want to bore anyone either i suppose....
i need to stop...
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life just kinda spun around 180 out of nowhere....you know its funny i actually thought things were beginning to look up....i guess i was wrong yet again...
im not really in the mood to delve into my heartbroken pathetic problems at the moment....dont want to bore anyone either i suppose....
i need to stop...
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bishop:
hey little one.....what happened...this wasn't about the boy was it...Josh.....the drugs......something else?
e-mail me.....or call.....we can chat if it will help......
love can be great...
yes, vacation...get in the car and drive....
I'm here to HELP!
e-mail me.....or call.....we can chat if it will help......
love can be great...
yes, vacation...get in the car and drive....
I'm here to HELP!
g_felix:
Hey eyesoopenned14121,
Hope things are looking up for you today! :-)
Hope things are looking up for you today! :-)
ive been sick....extremely sick....all i want to do is curl up and die right now.....i checked my mail for the first time in like a week yesterday....blah....you know whats sad though....i still worked my normal 40 ours....it fucking sucked....but i need to save up money and so that means no calling off......i wish i could make this a tad bit longer but im exhausted and...
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freyja__:
i HATE not being able to call in sick.
that's the worst feeling ever.
as if feeling sick wasn't bad enough.
blah.
make sure you drink lots of good tea.
and soups.
and juice.
and water.
*big warm hugs*
feel better soon.
that's the worst feeling ever.
as if feeling sick wasn't bad enough.
blah.
make sure you drink lots of good tea.
and soups.
and juice.
and water.
*big warm hugs*
feel better soon.
bishop:
are you okay? any better?
ah so yesterday....what an awfully interesting day.....this might be a long post...so if there is no one who actually reads it through i will not be hurt...in fact i will understand completely...seeing as my writing isnt always the most vivid and attention grabbing...
i woke up saw the frost got all happy blah blah blah...those who read yesterdays post already know this so i wont...
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i woke up saw the frost got all happy blah blah blah...those who read yesterdays post already know this so i wont...
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joscelyne:
hello again, doll.
i hope you're taking care of yourself.
i hope you're taking care of yourself.
lefty:
damn, that story makes me wish i had someone in my life.... ugh... dont wanna think about that...
your right not to want to socialize with someone who contributed to your drug problem. dont listen to him. i dont blame you for not wanting to go to a funeral. Ive only been to one, and thats enough for the rest of my life.
your right not to want to socialize with someone who contributed to your drug problem. dont listen to him. i dont blame you for not wanting to go to a funeral. Ive only been to one, and thats enough for the rest of my life.
there was frost on the ground thi morning when i took my dogs outside....i wanted to do cartwheels i was so excited....the air smelled so crisp and cool....each drag from my cigarette was enjoyed more than the last....i in a way almost feel relieved that summer is just about over and winter is on its way.....im so much happier in the winter, underneath my sweaters...
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bishop:
I love the cold weather and cold weather clothes.
You know college is not for everybody - even for many intelligent people. If you are happier with your decision then that is what is important. You know - I went 7 years of college and law school and often wish I had not.
I think I made the wrong decision because I'm not happy with the way things turned out.
So - you piant - then you will paint me something on canvas right??????? With browns and tans and burnt orange tones and burgundies??? And I will pay you for it and pay for shipping - right?????
And yes - if you are in Atlanta - I will teach you chess.
You know college is not for everybody - even for many intelligent people. If you are happier with your decision then that is what is important. You know - I went 7 years of college and law school and often wish I had not.
I think I made the wrong decision because I'm not happy with the way things turned out.
So - you piant - then you will paint me something on canvas right??????? With browns and tans and burnt orange tones and burgundies??? And I will pay you for it and pay for shipping - right?????
And yes - if you are in Atlanta - I will teach you chess.
silver___:
Yes, college is a love/hate relationship for me. Its different for everyone. I love to learn new things and I love the way that you can model all manner of things with mathematics, but I like to take the time to experiment and I hate to memorize for the sake of memorizing. The one thing I would suggest, however, is do not use community college as a gauge for "real" college. I've done both and they are quite different with respect to work expectations and material coverage.
Most importantly, do you want what college will provide? Will going to college fill a proverbial hole?
At any rate, take care
Silver
Most importantly, do you want what college will provide? Will going to college fill a proverbial hole?
At any rate, take care
Silver
i am...a girl with grey/blue/yellow eyes. an artist. creative and quirky. a bad speller, but yet fairly well read and intelligent. overly sarcastic at times. never melodramatic. outgoing and friendly. conversationalist extraordinare(a good example of my lack of spelling ability). passionate. sensual and sexual. vegetarian and owner of 2 adorable dogs. spontaneous. cudlly and loving. a gas station attendant and not all that proud of...
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bishop:
yes, yes...a daughter I love so much.....I don't mention her much becuase a) I am protective of her and b) it seems to scare off new people - friends, potential dates, girls - for whatever reason....and I am a great daddy - thanks - what other dad let's his daughter paint his toenails???
jasiri:
ahhhh, you are lovely...stay real love, that is obviously one of your greatest strengths... as for the sweet jason love...well, it is insanely frightening to reveal oneself, and yet...regardless of his thoughts or reactions..you are just as lovely and splendid...he can only compliment this in you...but if, somehow (truly unbelievable) soesn't see you for you...well then, that in no way means that you are not just as fantastic...excuse this soap box rant...just wishing you the best...and i am all too aware of the experience of others holding too mush power over my own experience of self... i hope that you dream of flying...and don't stop when you realize just how high you're capable of flying....
im in love.....
the museum was lovely...we walked around for hours just lost in the art that surrounded us and in each other....i havent had such a nice afternoon in ages....afterward we went to get a quick bite to eat and then he dropped me off so i could get some rest before i had to leave for work....
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the museum was lovely...we walked around for hours just lost in the art that surrounded us and in each other....i havent had such a nice afternoon in ages....afterward we went to get a quick bite to eat and then he dropped me off so i could get some rest before i had to leave for work....
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csilla:
wow that sounds amazing. i am so happy for you. isnt it the best feeling in the whole world?? does he live near you?
xoxo csilla
xoxo csilla
bishop:
I am so happy for you - this is great.
in 4 hours jason will be here...
we're going to the museum today....he told me he's excited because he hasnt been there in about 3 years....the antici.......pation is building....
annaliesa is home for the weekend...shes sitting at my kitchen table doing college algebra.....shes such a lovely girl....i wish she wasnt going to wvu....i wish she was up here going to pitt or soemthing....you cant always...
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we're going to the museum today....he told me he's excited because he hasnt been there in about 3 years....the antici.......pation is building....
annaliesa is home for the weekend...shes sitting at my kitchen table doing college algebra.....shes such a lovely girl....i wish she wasnt going to wvu....i wish she was up here going to pitt or soemthing....you cant always...
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jasiri:
i'm sorry that you two need to be apart...i wish that we all lived closer...so many that we care for have to be so far from us...but, i suppose that time apart shows those that it can not tarnish... i'm delerious, and am now putting myself to bed...hello, by the way, nice to meet you...
joscelyne:
I'm a bit late but thanks for backin me up on the kidneythieves comment on the boards! They're rockin.
And my, my aren't you delicious.
And my, my aren't you delicious.
eyes dialate
when you walk in
and out and over me
onto you
i move with soft
step caressing
the pavement
letting the rumors murmor
up and down the halls of
your heart
id scream it all
if i could
but my lungs couldnt hold enough air
unlike my head
when im with you
or without
hold onto the strings
and pull them tightly
harder...
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when you walk in
and out and over me
onto you
i move with soft
step caressing
the pavement
letting the rumors murmor
up and down the halls of
your heart
id scream it all
if i could
but my lungs couldnt hold enough air
unlike my head
when im with you
or without
hold onto the strings
and pull them tightly
harder...
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csilla:
your poem is beautiful. dont stop writing. it really touched me.and i know how you feel about yoru boyfriend. ive been going out with mine for almost 7 months now and i still get that feeling...too good to be true...
xoxo csilla
xoxo csilla
g_felix:
Hey eyesoopenned,
Please keep writing! Your poem is NOT awful!!! It's very good!
Thanks for sharing your poem!
Please keep writing! Your poem is NOT awful!!! It's very good!
Thanks for sharing your poem!
jason and i had our first official date last night....im still floating.....i havent been this happy in a very very long time...
i have work today at 12...til 1015....normally this would ort of upset me...but not today....
i have work today at 12...til 1015....normally this would ort of upset me...but not today....
ponyboy_curtis:
IM me or e-mail me. I wanted the sorted details. hehe
bishop:
so....tell us about it
in all honesty im a little scared/nervous/excited right now...
fellow sg member belmondo is coming all the way to pittsburgh today....its my first actual "nude" photoshoot....i mean nude modeling for a bunch of collegiate types is one thing i suppose...but i guess im just nervous that if and when i send my pictures to missy and spooky that theyll just kind of laugh and point...
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fellow sg member belmondo is coming all the way to pittsburgh today....its my first actual "nude" photoshoot....i mean nude modeling for a bunch of collegiate types is one thing i suppose...but i guess im just nervous that if and when i send my pictures to missy and spooky that theyll just kind of laugh and point...
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bishop:
yeah - i thought it was no guys in the sets.
How could they ever refuse YOU as an official SG - good luck with it - we can't wait to see - at least post them on the boards.
and thanks for your post - I do think I am nice and wonderful - at least I try to be - we will see if others feel the same way - and onve the picture is up we will see if anyone finds me cute
How could they ever refuse YOU as an official SG - good luck with it - we can't wait to see - at least post them on the boards.
and thanks for your post - I do think I am nice and wonderful - at least I try to be - we will see if others feel the same way - and onve the picture is up we will see if anyone finds me cute
ponyboy_curtis:
wait a minute, is jason still all thick headed?
can't see the forest from the trees?
oh my lord, that boy needs help if he's gonna pose with you in a nude set for SG and still doesn't get the hint
can't see the forest from the trees?
oh my lord, that boy needs help if he's gonna pose with you in a nude set for SG and still doesn't get the hint
i can still taste his lips....
i can still hear his heart racing with mine
i can still smell his cologne...
i can still feel his hips pressed to mine and his fingers drawing circles on my stomach...
i can still see his eyes staring back at mine...
he feels the same way about me...
i have this goofy smile on my face thats been...
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i can still hear his heart racing with mine
i can still smell his cologne...
i can still feel his hips pressed to mine and his fingers drawing circles on my stomach...
i can still see his eyes staring back at mine...
he feels the same way about me...
i have this goofy smile on my face thats been...
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orchid1:
That's very beautiful...I really liked Smack too.
If we were all weiner dogs our problems would be solved.
If we were all weiner dogs our problems would be solved.
bishop:
great for you - I hope to get that feeling again