extrafox

Hello insomnia.

Thanksgiving is getting closer and closer. Less than a week til I fly home, and I can't sleep at night for all the random thoughts flying around my mind. I can't shut them off. It's 11 a.m. and I'm still awake. I really just don't understand how it can be so impossible to turn thinking off. So many people around me seem to do it on a daily basis.

I don't know if this is just me, but I've never been able to only think one thought at a time. There's always a layer of music, some song I've got stuck in there or a background beat to my mind. There's a layer of what I'm saying or what I might say if I were to respond to the situation. There's a worry or two. There's self-doubt. Always self-doubt. Every thought I have is accompanied by a secondary "jesus christ, that's stupid" or "sure, be a bitch" thought to go with it.

Now I draw blanks, but it's about what the hell is this thing