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So for the first time I was totally hit with a big does of negative ego vibes. Which kind of suck as I've only developed a conscious sense of my ego over the past couple years for certain reasons known only to a select few.

Anyhow -- I was suddenly worried that everything I make.. sucks. In a really bad way. It's not that I've always thought I was the king or something; I just never thought about it. At all. I just made stuff and that was it... I never knew what to say when people commented on it and just relied on my thank-you's to get through it.

I'm slowly coming to terms with this sudden dilemma. It's a bit of a problem since I started a freelancing under my design company, Simple Ninja and am kinda hoping it will get me out of the potential mess I will be in when the New Year hits. I need my stuff to be good.. I need some mojo, baby! (or something).

So I hope not everything I make completely blows. Because since subscribing to Elance to get some work, I've already been put off 3 times. Damnit.

I'm failing to see what's so freakin merry about these holidays. Sigh.