esther

Today is the five year anniversary of a car accident they told my parents while I was unconcious in ICU that I wasn't going to walk away from. I looked at myself naked and felt really good. I hugged Cupcake a little tighter this morning. I said 'I love you' to my daddy just as he was leaving for work. I had a diet soda, bagel and a cigarette for breakfast and I looked contemptibly at the dog who was begging for food, despite her own bowl being full. I read a newpaper article on a slumlord getting the record fine of all the slumlords of phoenix. I think I should like to call this day my rebirth day. A day for cheating death and funny scars on my hand and arm everybody stares at and nobody asks about.

the cosby show is almost over and I gave the dog my last bite of my bagel.