eroticgeek

So it is Wednesday. I awoke this morning rather early. I have not been sleeping much lately. No particular reason really. I have been just on a really fucked up sleep schedule. Today, I must spend the entire day doing three weeks worth of homework or I fail my first course in graduate school. Ahhhhh! Not a good thing. I have never failed at anything in my life. I will admit I am a procrastinator by nature, so I must take some credit for my lack of time to get all this work done, but I have just been so preoccupied lately. I have been enjoying my life for a change. I am in love. I am trying to better my life. I want to become independent. I want to fix my finances. I want to find me for once and not be what others expect me to be. Slowly, I am doing it. Yes, it is pissing some people off, but you know what, "that's life!" You can not go through life always pleasing everyone. You must just worry about yourself and those that you love who also respect you as a person and how you feel. If they treat you good, then you do the same in return. Life is all about give and take. Love is the same. It is all about sacrifice and acceptance. Nothing is perfect and never will be. You just need to realize what makes you smile and go with it. I think I have and I know the steps I need to take to make sure that smile stays permanently on my face. So I am working on it. With some help of course! *wink* I am hoping I get to hang out with some friends this weekend. It would be nice to relax for awhile. I need to learn to do that as well. Relaxation does not exist in my vocabulary. So I have a lot to learn. Relaxation, less worrying about useless crap, learning to let go and have fun, and well just not being shy old boring Jen. So we will see what happens. I will keep everyone updated. For those who have actually been reading my ramblings, I went and looked at the apartment yesterday. It was very nice. It was newly remodeled. It was in my price range. The only draw backs were that it wasn't completely accessible and it was not in the greatest of neighborhoods. However, the accessibility issues can be dealt with. I have lived with my crutches and such since I was born basically. I can adapt to any situation. It just takes a little extra thought and time. I never let my disability stop me from doing something. So as far as ruling out this apartment as a potential rental. Nah! However, I want to look at just a few more before I make a decision. After all, I am a Libra. Everyone is well aware of how indecisive Libra's can be...*giggle* Until next time....