erin

damn these feelings. it's proving a bit difficult to step out of one life and into another, and the complications seem to add up as the days go by. i've always been a bit impressionable - honest-to-goodness opinions are always clouded by my fear of my own bad judgement and the repercussions of playing with the lives and feelings of others. if i could only lock myself away and analyze my own state of mind for a few days without having to consider all the variables outside of my little box. maybe i'm going insane! wheee! no, i'm not that lucky....

my head hurts. i'm not trying to be dramatic, i've just been thinking about things too much maybe. "just don't think about it" comes to mind, and it makes me wish i really could just shut things off the way some people do. it makes me wish i could time travel. it makes me wish i had a twin sister to be in cahoots with, and we could split up the hassles of daily living.

balance. lets see, can't be so negative. things i love - my cat, janelle, unspoken understandings, having true sypathy for a person in a troubled situation, listening to metal while doing the dishes, finding hidden goodies in the back of the fridge. sitting by the river at night watching the stars with my best friend, and not having to say anything. stumbling drunk upon a playground in the middle of the night. tomato soup, garlic bread, peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.

alright, i feel better. maybe if i keep thinking happy thoughts, i can learn to fly....

come see me wednesday and friday night at union jacks this week...