erin

I feel all snotified ... it's that time of year.

Fresh starts are always good ... it's the stale starts that kill ya.

Oh ... and you're purty.

I don't douche.

so what's a dude have to do to get a two way conversation with you nowadays?

Who's Veronica? Old name, or new name?

trilo

i have a strange question for you. do you have that permanent lower retainer because you stopped going to the orthodontist mid treatment or because they recommended it be there forever? i have the same exact shit.
on an unrelated note your hair looks nice. mr. spree did a fine job.

the superman blue/black used to be my favorite. it really brings out your eyes.

you always were such the looker. sigh. how's things?

So... did you use this mouse toy on Sean... or the cat?

craziness. You are going through almost the exact thing that I am going through. I have massive brain farts all the time where I cant find the words that i want. I also get attacked by these massive hiccups. Not a good thing to get in the middle of a silent movie theatre. People get pissed really quickly. And people like to point out that I'm "a really tall girl" ...gee...thanks tips. Like I wasnt aware of that already.
And to top it all off I dont know if I am insured with my dentist. Which sucks. My teeth hurt and I need to get them checked but I dont know if i can becuase I dont have money to pay in case I am not covered.
Yeah, I totally agree with the maze thing.

Your appreciation of TheShrike's insight leads me to believe you may appreciate this; the similarities between these two dynamic duos:

Socrates & Meno (The Platonic Dialogues, circa 350 b.c.)

Ty Webb & Judge Smails (Caddyshack, circa 1980 a.d.)

Socrates:
Nature has given us two ears, two eyes, and but one
tongue - to that end we should hear and see more then
we speak.

Judge Smails:
Its easy to grin
When your ship comes in
And youve got the market beat
But the man whos worth while
Is the man who cam smile
When his shorts are too tight in the seat

Kenny Loggins:
dip dip dip dip dip dip dip dip
Boom, boom, boom, boom

Yeah that sucks! I say fuck the banks, and stick it to the man! That's why I burry all of my cash in coffee cans scattered all over the Portland metro area! Whenever I'm strapped for cash I just start digging! Bank accounts are for old fuckers with way toooo much money anyhow.

In better news, did you see this?

http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?file=/gate/archive/2003/09/17/notes091703.DTL

Yay!

You know love, I wish I could write about the kinds of emotions you stir in me in a quick and easy way, but I know I can't. It seems like every single time I read one of your journal entries I get that lump in my throat and start to get glassy eyed and know the tears are going to be flowing whether I like it or not. My God you break my heart, Veronica- you really break my heart. To even scratch the surface of why is to open a floodgate of emotion that runs so deep I- oh damnit, I don't know if I can finish this. I never have before- if you only knew how many beginnings I've written to words I was going to post in your journal or email you directly that I couldn't finish- they become a jumble of thoughts that turn into a kind of stream of consciousness that bounces from one thought to another in a way that only someone else who has ADD/ADHD could ever follow or make sense of... but then it goes beyond that, till even I myself forget the point I'm trying to make, as I stray from tangent to tangent. I'm nearing that point now, in fact. Jesus, you should see all I wrote in response to that journal entry of yours with the analogy about the Roadrunner and Wild E. Coyote- I never COULD finally put that together.

Pardon me love, but right now I gotta go lie down for a little while and come back to finish this in a bit; besides the unsteady emotional state I'm in at the moment, I have a tooth that cracked and did some painful nerve damage (which my insurance won't pay to have treated), and which I need to find a way to pay $1500 for a route canal and reconstruction of- and it's hurting me so fucking badly at the moment that i'm about to faint. ... back in a bit ...

-90 min. or so later:

OK, I'm back... I'm not really hurting any less- not in any sense- but for this once time I'm gonna try and put this thought together. Alright, here goes: the reason you break my heart upon my reading your words is complicated, Veronica. Your words are often childlike in their innocence- seemingly consciously so- yet still somehow so beautiful and touching in their naivet. You see the world in such a simple and yearning way- though you do perhaps play it up a bit to add to the eloquence and style of the narrative you use to relate these thoughts in your journal. I remember a quote I heard one time that goes "there's a simple pleasure one takes in saying things well." Nonetheless, just like artists (as they choose to create works of self-expression), we're all a bit guilty of "grandstanding" in a sense by choosing to wear our hearts on our sleeves as we discuss the specifics of or the generalities of our lives or life in general here in such a public forum.

In the end though, there seems somehow to be something so honest and pure about you that I feel like I can see right through to your soul. And I can't quite put my finger on what it is, definitively. Maybe it's the fact that I see so much of myself in you. Maybe it's that we have so much in common that I think we might be the same person. Maybe I'm sure of it. Perhaps it's madness to think you know someone intimately from simply reading their words or staring at their picture as I've done with yours, as your magnificent likeness in your irresistable nerd glasses from the "clothes swap pt.1" set is currently set as my desktop pic. Maybe I'm fucking scared to death I might be falling in love with you. But there really can't be any such thing as "love" can there? Not if everyONE's the same person- playing different personalities inside a universe of delusion... not if every THING's the same single THING. It's all just chasing shadows on a wall, isn't it? But I can be a pretty good shadowboxer sometimes, don't ya think?

Love is the Seventh Wave,

Alexander

Aliens, whose appearances have changed due to centuries of evolving after leaving Earth once it became uninhabitable, are humans using eventual time-travel technology to visit us from the future.

[Edited on Sep 17, 2003]

Insane in the membrane!

ive already gone insane. they wont let me come back. ill save you a seat

again?

Ok. but only after telling you that you did a great job with the Ginger set that went up on Monday. Hope you had fun, cause it sure looks like it was.

was at the troubador last night. the stage is way up high, which is good. it's fairly small (compared to the roxy or whatever), plus they would only turn on the air conditioning for about ten minutes, which made for much stickiness. but eh. what you gonna do.

I can't imagine anyone thinking you were ever ugly or awkward. Send these people to me and I'll smash their face!! (as long as I don't hurt myself).

You're all nerds!!!!!!!!!
Teach me to be one too Erin. I can learn! There's still time...