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Well I noticed today that I am missing a friend from my friends list. It is okay. I attempted to reach out to her. To get to know her. I have no idea why she put me on her friends list if she didn't care to get to know me. Perhaps it was just some sort of courtesy thing. My life and my power are only for those who desire or need their benefits. If you want me in your life I will give to you with all that I have with no end. If you do not want what I have to give and share that is fine. I do not will or control. Well I do not exert that strength upon people. I do not expect anyone to be in my life forever. I am here for whoever needs me for the extent that they need me. My goal in any relationship is to see that whoever I am interacting with out grows me. At least their need for me. Help them to heal their wounds and let them go have their proper life. To those that do want to stay in my life and have accepted me for all that I am. I am very thankful. For those that somehow do really fall in love with me. I would never wish that on anyone. Something about me just causes it sometimes. To them I pledge my greatest gifts. Well anyone only gets from me what they earn or deserve. The full power and depths of my sexuality. To truly know my infinite love. To know my deepest truths and see me as vulnerable as I get. This just didn't make any sense. I need to write in my xanga more.