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Best Easter ever: my youngest two brothers and sister, searching the backyard for Easter eggs and the like. I was still in my teens and didn't really understand the importance of it. Now, all I can think about is my youngest brother sitting in the swingset screaming to his father to "-wing me." He was about three at the time. It cracks me up every...
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I don't know what to type here. But I've been so depressed and depressing lately I don't want people thinking I'm some gravely morose fella who knows nothing but sorrow. Sometimes I feel that way, but most of the time I know I will be happy eventually. I've just been so wronged so much so that it's difficult for me to forget about it. I...
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I've lost count of how much I have drank tonight. But apparently it's not enough. I can't seem to go to sleep without a decent amount in my system and tonight I have been drinking since 2pm and I simply cannot find drunkenness. My buddy invited me to go watch this incredible musician play which I was down for. However, it just so happened to...
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Unfortunately, I've come to the conclusion that drinking away your problems is perfectly acceptable. I took out my trash this morning and it reminded me of college. That bad.

My new job at the bike shop rocks, and I don't even start there until tomorrow morning. I spent the evening hanging out there, talking shop, working on my ride and just hanging out drinking a few beers. All the guys there tonight were cool as hell and I can't wait to ride with them. It's exactly what I need right now and I am...
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH (breathe-breathe-breathe-breathe-breathe) huuuuu-AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, I used to be a HUGE mountain biker and have for the first time in two years been dying to get back on some trail. So I went down to the local bike shop yesterday to find out about riding around here and got to talk to the guys there, one of them being the owner. Real cool guy, we got along immediately. I...
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I NEED YOUR HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We've been trading a couple sparse emails the past two days and she mentioned how she was avoiding answering some questions I had asked her the last time we spoke. She finally addressed them today. Here it is:


Okay, fine. Yes, I still love you, and want to be with you and want to have a family with you, but I'm...
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I talked to her today, I made her call me. I was rather upset that after everything she ended things by email. Pretty effing horrible. Anyway, we talked and she doesn't have a reason as to why she's doing this. It all makes no sense, and I give it about a 2% chance of success. She's leaving me for a man with no spine. He...
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It's over. She just emailed me the ending to all this. My hands are shaking. I'm so cold.