endlessly

I have tried so hard but to no avail. This is who I am and who I will forever be. You have but one love of your life. You either accept it and move on or torture yourself the remainder of your existence. I don't know where I stand right now. All i know is I've been talking about her for the past five hours and these guys are getting bored with my stories. I miss her daughter so much that I can't stand it. My family is gone. That's all there is to it. My family. Is. Gone. And all I want to do is cry as I type these words.