endlessly

I really don't want to feel this way anymore. I went and talked to the recruiter yesterday. Hopefully I'll be on my way soon. I know you can't run away from your problems and you can never really start over, but I need to get away from this place. I am constantly reminded of us here. I want a new place, a new job, new people, hell, I actually WANT to go to Iraq. I think it will really remind of what's truly important. On that note, I know for me finding that connection with someone is pretty much the most important thing, so, I'm basically screwed. Had that, lost it, hate everyday that I wake up without her. Well, there I go again. Woke up at 0430 this morning and couldn't go back to sleep. Looked at pictures of her, then went for a walk. Came back, watched some SCRUBS, and finally went back to sleep only to wake somewhere I didn't want to be. I want out of here so bad I can't stand it. Anybody know of a place I can go for a couple of weeks? Like the Ohio, Illinois, Maryland, West Virginia area? I just want to get away for a bit until it's time to go.

Thanks to all my friends on here who are trying to keep me positive. You are the best and I wish you continued happiness.