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So last night I walk into my friend's apartment and he had just threw in a movie. I ask what we're watching. He says The Notebook. My eyes widened and I practically yell at him, "DUDE!!! NO!!!!" In his defense he had no idea what it was. He had just borrowed a bunch of DVD burns from a friend and he said that was the...
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No news. Just sitting in the miserable heat. Fun. Going back to Huntington tonight. 'She' wrote me an email today from Kuwait. She's doing well. But it still hurt to think that right now there's some guy in Hawaii waiting to get phone calls from her, emails everyday, and whom she'll probably go visit on her R&R. That was supposed to be me. A friend...
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libra:
awwwwwww im sorry she mucked you about. i have serious trust issues due to a past relationship, but im getting better 
a bit. different strokes for different folks i suppose.
dunno if you r better off alone but it sounds as tho your better off without her, no matter how much you care about her.
it'll get better,
a bit. different strokes for different folks i suppose.
dunno if you r better off alone but it sounds as tho your better off without her, no matter how much you care about her.
it'll get better,
cerephinna:
Do you think you'll ever forgive her?
I don't think I'll ever forgive him. I'll stop caring one day soon, but I'll never forgive him.
I don't think I'll ever forgive him. I'll stop caring one day soon, but I'll never forgive him.
Still waiting. And yes, it still sucks.
cerephinna:
Waiting always sucks 
endlessly:
You know, I'm not doing too well right now. I have had a total relapse and I'm falling down again. God I miss her.
Waiting sucks. I'd rather be in Iraq than sitting here on my ass trying to find something else to do.
cerephinna:
Waiting always sucks ass, and likes it!
Actually many would say I *am* crazy......
Actually many would say I *am* crazy......
Okay, got a lot done yesterday. The whole jury duty thing sucked, but I got out of it so cool. After that I went and saw my tattoo guy who asked me to come back today. I should do that soon. Then, I relocated my cats to their new temporary home. Those poor guys. Since she got them they've lived in Maryland for a month,...
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sureality:
I am so glad you enjoyed the new Alexsandria Shoot. Check out my journal for behind the scenes.
Had to go to jury duty this morning. Boy did that suck. Sat in this room for two hours listening to the judge go on about how it's our 'civic duty' to do this. I agreed, and I wouldn't have minded doing so, but my new contract is days away and I didn't want to get caught up in anything that I wouldn't be able...
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cerephinna:
Decent?? On a porn site?? 
Okay, so I lost the bet. She called me last night. Can't say it was a very pleasant conversation. She is still treating me the same way she has been since the whole miserable end; rather abrasive and cold. She told me she was going to send the ring back to me with all my mail and that she wanted to get it appraised because...
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endlessly:
Now, am I the best ex-fiance ever or just a sucker for walking all over? She called me again today saying she needed a favor. She still hasn't completed her state taxes and wanted to know if I could take care of it for her. Now, I immediately agreed because I want to help and I said I would do this for her when we were still 'living together' in Hawaii, but all the nonsense kept me from getting it done. I feel this is something that I should have already taken care of but didn't, so there's a little obligation in there. And, I want her to know that I will be there for her, like I told her I always would.
The only thing that really bugs me is that I know why she never got them done herself. Simply because she was out having a good time with her new 'guy' (that's pronounced 'piece of shit') and wasn't doing all the things she needed to be. I'm a procrastinator, but she simply put her life on the back-burner to have fun.
Okay, nevermind. I'm getting into a negative place here and I don't need to be bad-mouthing her. She is leaving for Iraq tomorrow and I can't fault her for trying to enjoy herself before she leaves. I have no doubts she will return safely, but I'm sure she is not as certain.
Went for a ride today. I was surprised by just how in riding shape I still am. I haven't ridden in months. I only got beat on the hills, and the guys I was with are climbing bastards, so I didn't feel all that bad.
-breaks arm patting self on back-
The only thing that really bugs me is that I know why she never got them done herself. Simply because she was out having a good time with her new 'guy' (that's pronounced 'piece of shit') and wasn't doing all the things she needed to be. I'm a procrastinator, but she simply put her life on the back-burner to have fun.
Okay, nevermind. I'm getting into a negative place here and I don't need to be bad-mouthing her. She is leaving for Iraq tomorrow and I can't fault her for trying to enjoy herself before she leaves. I have no doubts she will return safely, but I'm sure she is not as certain.
Went for a ride today. I was surprised by just how in riding shape I still am. I haven't ridden in months. I only got beat on the hills, and the guys I was with are climbing bastards, so I didn't feel all that bad.
-breaks arm patting self on back-
guyincognito:
When you get the ring back, cash it in at the pawn shop and go out and blow it on booze, strippers and crack.
Kidding!
Sorry to hear about your breakup. I read a few of your past entries and it sounds like you're struggling to come to terms with everything that happened. Understandably so.
Don't beat yourself up to bad for feeling crushed. For a while you're going to feel like a piece of you has died. Like any injury, it's going to feel the worst at first and gradually start to fade. Most likely it will never fade completely. There will always be feelings and memories. Over time, you'll learn to accept the pain and possibly even reflect on the wonder of what you did once have.
Boy that sounds pretty lame when I read it back... but I think you get the basic idea of what I'm saying...
OR... you could tune into this 80's station that I'm listing to at the moment -- http://www.club977.com/ -- where ever other song is about "not giving up and winning back the girl at all costs". Geez, if only that worked in real life and didn't result in a weekend in jail and a restraining order...
Take it easy man, and don't kill too many brain cells with all your boozin. I heard chicks go for guys with big brains! (Or that's what I'm hopin!)
Kidding!
Sorry to hear about your breakup. I read a few of your past entries and it sounds like you're struggling to come to terms with everything that happened. Understandably so.
Don't beat yourself up to bad for feeling crushed. For a while you're going to feel like a piece of you has died. Like any injury, it's going to feel the worst at first and gradually start to fade. Most likely it will never fade completely. There will always be feelings and memories. Over time, you'll learn to accept the pain and possibly even reflect on the wonder of what you did once have.
Boy that sounds pretty lame when I read it back... but I think you get the basic idea of what I'm saying...
OR... you could tune into this 80's station that I'm listing to at the moment -- http://www.club977.com/ -- where ever other song is about "not giving up and winning back the girl at all costs". Geez, if only that worked in real life and didn't result in a weekend in jail and a restraining order...
Take it easy man, and don't kill too many brain cells with all your boozin. I heard chicks go for guys with big brains! (Or that's what I'm hopin!)
Well, talked to the recruiter today. Guess, I'm back to the waiting game. More paperwork has to go thru before I can sign, but hopefully I will get that interview taken care of SOON!!!! Sara texted me yesterday. Out of the blue, huh? First said, "I need your address." I gave it to her then asked what was up. She replied, "sending mail." For some...
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Finally got to sleep around 2200 last night. Then woke up without the alarm about five minutes before it went off. That was 0415. I'm not bitching, I'm just saying that waiting around taking stupid physicals after getting up way before dawn is not my idea of a great day. But whatever it takes to get this ball rolling, let's go. Anyway, the medical went...
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Went and did med-support at Ft. Knox yesterday for organizational day. Not really medic work but I got a free meal out of it. Then got pulled in to compete in some activities. Played volleyball and joined in the 'Warrior Competition.' That's the Army idea of fun. It was fun, though. It's strange how I think of doing push-ups and sit-ups and running with a...
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unsub:
push ups...I would like to see that...how many can you do?
Nothing to report today. Still just waiting on that phone call. Haven't hit the bottle in like a week. I'm not counting days here or anything, I just think I'm over the whole 'drinking my sorrows away.' Still having trouble falling asleep though. But I've pretty much always had that problem. It just kind of dissappeared last year during the whole 'happiness' era. Anyway, I'm...
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unsub:
Seems like you are feeling a little better. I agree about eh tv....they just suck you in ...in so many ways.
endlessly:
Good news. Went in to the recruiter's office today just to check in. I was greeted with the question, "How did you know to come in today?" Seems my med-screen was approved and I'm supposed to go for my physical on Monday. I guess they have a new way of doing things cuz as soon as that's over with I'm done for the day. Then, they'll either send me back up to talk about jobs and sign the paperwork, or they'll do it over the phone(?). That's what I was told. Seems kind of weird to me, but I don't write the policy. I just follow orders. Wish me luck.
Thinking of that homework assignment I was given a couple of days ago I thought of two things that should I ever get involved in a relationship again will be a must.
1- someone who is not afraid to let me take pictures of her. Some of my fondest memories of my last girlfriend were going hiking in Gambrill State Park in MD and taking...
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1- someone who is not afraid to let me take pictures of her. Some of my fondest memories of my last girlfriend were going hiking in Gambrill State Park in MD and taking...
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unsub:
Everyone needs time to heal. You are looking at the assigment wrong. At least you know somethings you really want.
endlessly:
Yeah, but then I went on myspace and re-read some old messages from her from just a few months ago (???????) and really got bummed. I am a true idiot. I can't help torturing myself.
Anyway, went for a really great run. Haven't been running too much lately cuz of the heat and all but made myself last night. Felt less stressed than I have in weeks and slept great. I wish I could run everyday but I have a really crazy metabolism and would seriously wither away to nothing. Sucks.
Anyway, went for a really great run. Haven't been running too much lately cuz of the heat and all but made myself last night. Felt less stressed than I have in weeks and slept great. I wish I could run everyday but I have a really crazy metabolism and would seriously wither away to nothing. Sucks.