emilyxsuicide

well um.... apparently someone "missed me" and bought me another 3 months on this thing. id ont know. wierd.

i miss you.


if you read this.

im not what i used to be.
im not happy anymore.


make me smile.
come home?


st. louis .


home is callin you.

please answer.


i love you.

Nevermind. you were full of shit.
Just like everyone was saying.

i havent been on here in forever.
then again. ive been without a computer for the last few months.
NEVER buy a computer from Curcuit city.
Or maybe it was just me bc they hated me haha.
im a bitch like that.
ANYWAY.

nothing really new.
gettin ready to quit my job at the...
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im really hopin youre not full of shit.
that you arent like everyone else.


prove me wrong.

im goin through the hardest thing ive had to go through in a while.


all i want to do is be around my friends.

be around her.

take pictures.

smile.
laugh.
cry.
just make it through all this.



together we will.

this is gonna be rough.
but well make it.
i promise.
myself and you.

flksjfsalj.
i have the worst case of strep throat.
my tonsils are killing.
i have a fever that keeps goin up and down.
i cant stay awake for more than an hour at a time.
it hurts.
boooo.
i ache all over.
someone come make me some soup.
i prefer chicken noodle without the lil pieces of chicken. they are gross. so just broth and...
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started my new job.

positively exhausting. no joke. moday i worked 10am-6pm. and today and tomorrow i work/ed..7am til 5. ew. but the kids really are sweet. rowdy as hell but good kids really. most of the people i work with are fantastic.


other than that...



YOURE A COMPLETE JOKE.

im on these new meds.
that make me sick as crap.
just one ofthem .
so i call my doctor today .
apparently hes on vacation until the 25th.
the nurse said in a very bitchy way " WELL IF I WAS THROWING UP.. id stop taking them "
and so i hung up.

i still feel quite ill.
but i need to go to...
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HAPPY EASTER everyone.

its been a pretty uneventful day.i got some pretty cute shoes and goofy candy teeth but other than that. so far. nothing too good.

OH! Oh!oh!oh!
I got a new job. Im finally quiting my job at Blockbuster Video. I was only making 6.50.
My brothers roommate Kate got me a job at her daycare where i make like 9. i love...
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wtf.
what .
the.
fuck.



that better not be true.
or ill feel really bad.
bc that is REALLY.
REALLY fuckin wrong.

tequila rose.

thats allllll i have to say.

ashli is sleeping.
i am thinking ima go watch
teenage mutant ninja turtles and lay on my couch.
im off work for the next three days.
like ive said numerous times.
nothing to do either.
im broke.
i have no money to go anywhere.
even if i really want to go somewhere right now.
somewhere a few hundred miles away.

oi.

anyway.


im happy.
smiling....
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