Friday Oct 26, 2007

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i thought about going back to japan but as i was looking at plane tickets i got nauseous.
i just don't think i could go back there.

and don't ask me what happened while i was there to make me not want to go back - nothing happened.
the only thing that happened there was another life, no better or worse than the one i have here.
i had to throw that out there to avoid the comments asking why.

i paid $800 this month to my computer, got it paid off.
i still owe $850 to medical bills from one routine doctor visit because i don't have insurance.
rent for my room is $350 plus i still have to make $300 in deposits.
daniel wants a tv so bad that he's given me gray hair over it so there's another $500.
my car is grinding from the clutch...not a critical problem just a noise, but still annoying, who knows how much that will cost to fix. at least october is almost over. so much shit came up this month that i literally broke down under the stress a few times. i made myself sick. today i applied for health insurance that i know i'm going to get at a fairly good rate. the day i get approved i'm going to the doctor and i'm going to get treated for so much shit i don't have just to fuck with someone else for a change.
life seems to be all about the dollar bill anymore.
i'm getting tired of that.




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bornfree:
In Canada we have OHIP to cover our visits to the doctor. It's paid thru our taxes, no insurance. As long as we maintain our tax returns each year we're covered. Despite the state of the Canadian dollar, it doesn't last that long up here either. The older you get the more debt you create. The best thing you can do at your age is create an "Emi Tax". Save between 5 and 15% of each paycheque and put it in a savings account and FAHGET ABOUT IT. When your done with school and on your way to becoming a career women, you will have a nice little rainy day fund. Your school years are definetely the years you determine what is "fat" and what is necessary. In general, your fixed expenses per month should be roughly half of your monthly income. I wish I could pay off my computer in one shot, but inflation is the true bitch in life.

Chin up - whatever smile
lil_louie:
I'm sorry you're so stressed out Emi, that really sucks. frown
If I win the lottery jackpot tonight, I'll pay off your bills and stuff because that's the kind of person I am. I would expect nothing in return, because that wouldn't be fair to you. I would do it merely because I enjoy helping people and I like seeing people as happy and stress free as possible because it makes the world a better place to me. And if you wanted to do something in return, help someone else that needs it, even if it's just a ride to work or something. Making people smile is probably one of the most rewarding things you can do, not just rewarding for you, but rewarding for them as well as the people around them that day and possibly for days, weeks or months.
I hope you feel better very soon beautiful. *hugs*

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