ember

They say there's no place like home for the holidays, but I digress.

Being home is pretty lonely. All the people I once considered to be my friends have grown distant, some have faded completely. They've either abandoned all hope of finding true happiness in this little shit town and moved away, or they've drifted for other reasons. Admittedly I have never been popular here...but there was a time when I felt like I at least had someone to go to if I was having problems. Now I am beside myself.

It would be cool to have close female friends again.

Of course it's not all bad. I do manage to find ways to embark on crazy social outings when I'm home, but it never seems genuine. Most of the time I just feel like an accessory, like my presence there is incidental. I suppose I should just be grateful that I get any time away from my house at all.

I love my parents and all, but they're constantly doing shit and rarely ever take a break from the humdrum of everyday life. It makes being at home a little less than tolerable.

Despite how dismal this entry seems thus far, I'm not depressed or anything. Just making observations on my surroundings and how the changes have affected me.

And on the bright side, I'm going to see Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire tonight. Huzzah!

As a side note, my sets are done and were sent in last week, I believe. Joy and rapture for all, yes?