i closed my account. nice knowing all of u.
I HATE ALL OF U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
one more time...FUCK ALL OF YOU......THIS WAS A WASTE OF MONEY....sluts......
nobody cares......so, tomorrow i cancel my membershp....fuck off all you bitches....i dont need you....
as I plummet into the abyss that is future, I do so holding on to a past that I never lived, memories that are not my own. the years have gone by too quickly, and all to often I wasnt there for them. I've turned my back on myself more than on others, and forgiveness of self is the most difficult.
we got cable and high speed internet today!!!!!!! 
now i can actualy upload photos and surf the net...all in my own room!
now i can actualy upload photos and surf the net...all in my own room!
happy vd! 
i think i've become asexual. monday it will be a year since i've had any type of sex what so ever. i dont think i remember how to put on a condom anymore. and the sick thing is i realy just dont give a fuck.
jean_bernadette:
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You couldnt become asexual because that would mean you find neither men or women sexualy attractive. In this case you would become celebate. Because I'm for sure your attracted to some type of human. I read that you just dont give a fuck, so in that case....Have a wonderful Monday. I hope you are doing well and I think of you from time to time...
You couldnt become asexual because that would mean you find neither men or women sexualy attractive. In this case you would become celebate. Because I'm for sure your attracted to some type of human. I read that you just dont give a fuck, so in that case....Have a wonderful Monday. I hope you are doing well and I think of you from time to time...
my life is now complete....i saw vanilla ice perform "ice ice baby" at sevin last night. 
....it felt like i went back in time. fucking cool!
....it felt like i went back in time. fucking cool!
fairygrlz:
Did you actually see him in concert?? I thought he hated doing that song now.
fairygrlz:
You are too cute for me to delete even if you didn't comment in my journal!!! (Now don't get any ideas.... 
my day has completely went to shit, which seems to be the norm these days. i woke up hung over and depressed. at lunc, my truck decides to break a freeze plug, leak most of the cooland and over heat. got that fixed, but now it vibrates when i'm driving. weird. then i open up my mail and find that my insurance company has canceled...
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fairygrlz:
I am inspired by your journal!!! I am happy to say that I have never experienced the pain of having it all with a person you love and then loosing it all in an ugly divorce. I am so glad that you are strong enough to pull through and re-evaluate what matters most in your life. Life is a journey and it is all about what you make of what comes your way...
Hope your day is great tomorrow.
Hope your day is great tomorrow.
i hate mood swings. just when i think i have them figured out and under control they come along and screw up my day. if i was near a computer this morning this entry would be about the human races downward spiral to extinction, folowed by all of my defects that prove my theory. but i'm feeling much better now. 
fairygrlz:
Are u referring to ur mood swings or the mood swings of others??? Now that I don't live with my x I don't have too many mood swings and I enjoy myself much more because of it!
last night i got payed- for the first time in 2005. which is good, because i was running out of creative finance ideas. it never fails, i go on vacation, spend all my money, and then i dont have any work for a month when i get back. hmmmmmmm....maybe next time i'll set aside some money..... 
fairygrlz:
I am glad you updated your journal...you know I do like to read what you say so keep it coming! Pay is good!
Love Lots...
Love Lots...
Dont sound depressing. You will still see me even with out this. I know how to track you down....