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It's not real easy for me to put my thoughts into this.

I've kinda been in a bad mood recently. Not too bad, but enough for me to know it. I'm having thoughts I don't like. It's hard to tell who I am any more.

I can't understand my own thoughts. How would any of you? I want to ask for help, but I can't get myself that far. My friends got mad at me before. They would surely be furious now.

Suggestions, Help, swift kick to the head?

I'm a good man, left in a world that doesn't think I exist.

I went out one night with a friend. There were two women sitting at a table near us that we thought were very attractive. I wanted to approach them but couldn't. So I went and talked with the waitress and made arrangements to pay for their meal. And I did. As they left, they came up to me and asked me why I would do that. I told them I just wanted to. And when they persisted I told the trueth. Saying I was too afraid to ask for their phone numbers. one of the ladies offered to give me her number which I did not request. And said she looked forward to hearing from me. It was a fake number.

A lot of women complain that they can not find a nice guy. Two women did just that. Finding a nice guy only to treat him like shit for being nice. I never asked for a single thing. A thank you would have been fine enough.