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queue Everett in O Brother: "We in a tight spot"... my Dad's old adage has worked for me on such things in the past "never let out more than you can reel in in a big damn hurry when the game warden shows up"

Lol this is true. My heart is torn but we remain friends. I have seen him once more since writing this but it is difficult. My emotions are all over the place with it :/ i am trying to remain more as just a friend right now and i already trued to break it off once @robertbluesman

Your blogs are awesome! Signed: new fan. Last week a surgeon had to tell me "nothing we can do" after a 2nd vein mapping of my battle weary legs to find ways of reversing pools of leaked plasma fluid settling in my ankles and feet by days end for the past 5 years or so. When I first walked in to his operating room after the mapping, there was the usual clatter of instruments being autoclaved, phones incessantly ringing, copy machines rattling on and on, and the staff trying to raise their voices above it all and each other discussing my chart. Then... it all suddenly stopped, pin-drop quiet, he came out of the windowed anti room, wringing his hands looking down as he approached, his staff suddenly mute, hands drawn to their mouth or across their forehead, looking straight at me... a quick sum up of these observations told me this is for really real. I got my final countdown clock flicked on. It's not a dire timeframe, and I'm grateful to have survived all the slings and arrows of my prior lifestyle choices, but it's the first time someone actually told me, assuming no acute incident prevails, that I'm going to die from this. Funny, at 66 it was a bit of a relief actually. But I could see he was genuinely distraught, his staff in solemn observation, and so... I ended up comforting him! I felt his release of angst as a slight smile passed across his face, erasing his furrowed brow, when I told him how much I respected his opinion, and wanted him to know I wouldn't want to be in his shoes, and that he was just the messenger of what is. He told me he was humbled by my words, we shook hands, and I had an amazing day from then on! It has to be brutal when your in that mixing bowl and the bad news keeps piling in! I respect the work you do too my dear 😎

Well thank you so much... And I am so sorry to hear that. You have an amazing attitude about it... Many ppl dont it is one of the biggest human fears. Some handle it with anger, sadness, blame, denial, some with humor but we see it all. I am actually a nurse on a vascular thoracic surgical floor. It is interesting and humbling work. Best wishes to you.. :)) @robertbluesman

This struck home deep! Thanks!

You are very welcome :) @robertbluesman

Alice darling...! What's say you and me share a rabbit hole sometime soon? 😘💜

Oh my!! Lol @robertbluesman

I do it off my phone :/  lol but thx @woodsman29

I'm only suggesting that so you don't lose them.  You can also download Word for your phone.