I'm depressed today....darkly, angrily, miserably, inconsolably depressed. I know it's because I'm sick (my cold either came roaring back, or a new one found me--great); I'm home from work, feeling shitty and on my own, and I turn into a six-year-old when I'm sick, and promptly begin to feel that nobody loves me.
So I know there's a physical reason behind the depression, but it's amazing how rational thought just Doesn't Fucking Help At All when one is feeling this way.
I just want to spin myself a cocoon and stay in it for a very, very long time. I don't care about any transformation--if I'm still the same caterpillar when I emerge, that's fine with me. But it would be nice to have a rest, shut out the noise and expectations and assholes, for a while.
Nobody loves me. </irrational>
Gah. I hope I feel better tomorrow.
So I know there's a physical reason behind the depression, but it's amazing how rational thought just Doesn't Fucking Help At All when one is feeling this way.
I just want to spin myself a cocoon and stay in it for a very, very long time. I don't care about any transformation--if I'm still the same caterpillar when I emerge, that's fine with me. But it would be nice to have a rest, shut out the noise and expectations and assholes, for a while.
Nobody loves me. </irrational>
Gah. I hope I feel better tomorrow.
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troglodyte:
The scene where the little girl gets "shot" is is like getting hit in the chest with a 2x4, I thought.
oracle:
i think we should go to the SG event in Vancouver monday..we'll take the ferry together...
