stupid fucking sore on my mouth finally healing... face still broken out... Grr.... but I'm okay 
Pool day yet again.. this time I have to be VERY careful about my sunblock.. I do NOT want to get burned AGAIN... ah, to have fair skin.
I invited my friends to use me for my pool... That's okay.. I'll be using them for their company
Starting Metabolife.. Yeah, I'm bad.. but I know I'll only be on it for one week.. so wtf is the big deal, right? just want the little boost before my surgery...
About my surgery.. I can't stop obsessing about it.. I'm excited, anxious, nervous..... Its just CRAZY. I keep thinking about all the things that will change. My back.. I'll be albe to stand up straight for the first time in YEARS.. I won't get the rashes this summer from having such large breasts. I wonder about my trapezius (sp?) muscles.. They *should* get smaller. Will they? Will I actually have SHOULDERS? Right now my shoulders go straight down from my neck to my arms.. its really horrible looking.. no shoulders... and my breasts START at my collar bone and end about an inch or two above my ribs. I'm a small built girl, aside from the boobs and hips.. I mean small boned. Small ribcage.. I'm only 4'11" Hell, I wear childrens' shoes... But I digress....... Swimsuits will not have the "shelf" elastic digging right into the middle of my boobs.. oh, if I pull it down to go under.. .I pop out over the top. Same thing with a lot of dresses.. especially those empire waist things that I LOVE. Which goes to dresses.. ::sigh:: The waist hitting my waist?? Shirts.. I can wear button up shirts and things gathered in the middle, and it won't pull up in the front and be longer in the back.. FUCK I am so happy.. and once I can stop wearing the post-surgery sports bra I can wear CUTE bras!! That don't cost $40+ Ya know? INSANE!!!!!!
If you haven't gathered... I'm happy
Pool day yet again.. this time I have to be VERY careful about my sunblock.. I do NOT want to get burned AGAIN... ah, to have fair skin.
I invited my friends to use me for my pool... That's okay.. I'll be using them for their company
Starting Metabolife.. Yeah, I'm bad.. but I know I'll only be on it for one week.. so wtf is the big deal, right? just want the little boost before my surgery...
About my surgery.. I can't stop obsessing about it.. I'm excited, anxious, nervous..... Its just CRAZY. I keep thinking about all the things that will change. My back.. I'll be albe to stand up straight for the first time in YEARS.. I won't get the rashes this summer from having such large breasts. I wonder about my trapezius (sp?) muscles.. They *should* get smaller. Will they? Will I actually have SHOULDERS? Right now my shoulders go straight down from my neck to my arms.. its really horrible looking.. no shoulders... and my breasts START at my collar bone and end about an inch or two above my ribs. I'm a small built girl, aside from the boobs and hips.. I mean small boned. Small ribcage.. I'm only 4'11" Hell, I wear childrens' shoes... But I digress....... Swimsuits will not have the "shelf" elastic digging right into the middle of my boobs.. oh, if I pull it down to go under.. .I pop out over the top. Same thing with a lot of dresses.. especially those empire waist things that I LOVE. Which goes to dresses.. ::sigh:: The waist hitting my waist?? Shirts.. I can wear button up shirts and things gathered in the middle, and it won't pull up in the front and be longer in the back.. FUCK I am so happy.. and once I can stop wearing the post-surgery sports bra I can wear CUTE bras!! That don't cost $40+ Ya know? INSANE!!!!!!
If you haven't gathered... I'm happy
I had a friend who had the same surgery, she was real short too, she had to wait forever bceuase insurance wouldn't pay for it.
Hope all goes well with the surgery though
Have fun!
oh, and where have you been all day? i haven't talked to you since early am a day or two ago from what i remember.