man oh man
ok, here's what has happened.
last weekend i went out with a good friend of mine, mark, and i've known him for about 8 years or so. he's living in an apartment with this guy lenny & his cousin melissa. after meeting melissa a few weeks ago i thought she was pretty cool, was attracted to her, and wanted to get to know her a bit better. i later found out that mark has a thing for her, and so i just put the idea out of my head. so we go out last weekend, just the 3 of us, and when mark is gone one time, mel wants me to dance with her. so we go out on the floor, and she's holding me tight, rubbing me all over, holding my hand, etc. i'm fairly drunk at this time and i'm reciprocating. we go off after one song, and well, by the end of the night, everytime mark went to get a drink or go to the can, me and melissa would be making out until he got back. great, great idea huh? no. anyways, i haven't talked to her since, so i'm not sure what the hell is going on. i'm not sure if mark suspects anything...so, the problem is that there is no way she'll ever go for him, but i'll be an asshole if i move in on her. i gotta figure something out.
ok so last night, after another bout of drinking, i ended up back here with my roommate and 2 female friends. this girl catherine i have known for a few years, and i think she's really cool although i'm not interested in her beyond a friendship. so anyways, we're here, really drunk, and the other girl, colleen, seems to like my roommate, and so in my great attempt to give them some alone time, i told catherine to come into my room. anyways, she got into bed with me and i kind of snuggled up to her and held her, and we nearly kissed. now i think she's kind of hurt or confused by what happened, but i still feel the same way about her.
add on to all of this i am SOOOO not over the ex...not by a longshot. in fact, it's been 4 months now and i still think about her practically all day long. what. the. fuck.
maybe i should just stop drinking
ok, here's what has happened.
last weekend i went out with a good friend of mine, mark, and i've known him for about 8 years or so. he's living in an apartment with this guy lenny & his cousin melissa. after meeting melissa a few weeks ago i thought she was pretty cool, was attracted to her, and wanted to get to know her a bit better. i later found out that mark has a thing for her, and so i just put the idea out of my head. so we go out last weekend, just the 3 of us, and when mark is gone one time, mel wants me to dance with her. so we go out on the floor, and she's holding me tight, rubbing me all over, holding my hand, etc. i'm fairly drunk at this time and i'm reciprocating. we go off after one song, and well, by the end of the night, everytime mark went to get a drink or go to the can, me and melissa would be making out until he got back. great, great idea huh? no. anyways, i haven't talked to her since, so i'm not sure what the hell is going on. i'm not sure if mark suspects anything...so, the problem is that there is no way she'll ever go for him, but i'll be an asshole if i move in on her. i gotta figure something out.
ok so last night, after another bout of drinking, i ended up back here with my roommate and 2 female friends. this girl catherine i have known for a few years, and i think she's really cool although i'm not interested in her beyond a friendship. so anyways, we're here, really drunk, and the other girl, colleen, seems to like my roommate, and so in my great attempt to give them some alone time, i told catherine to come into my room. anyways, she got into bed with me and i kind of snuggled up to her and held her, and we nearly kissed. now i think she's kind of hurt or confused by what happened, but i still feel the same way about her.
add on to all of this i am SOOOO not over the ex...not by a longshot. in fact, it's been 4 months now and i still think about her practically all day long. what. the. fuck.
maybe i should just stop drinking
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sunnysunny:
requiem for a dream is too fucked up i hated it, it made me sick