e_loveless

the shit has finally hit the fan with kate.
i'm so exhausted.
so sick of discussing this whole goddamn situation.
sick of talking about how i feel.
why i feel that way.
what would alter this hellish state.
what can't be fixed.
that which is forever fucking smashed to pieces.
i'm falling apart at the seams.
it won't be much longer now before i completely disappear.
there's a giant, unmendable hole in my heart.
oh, and of course to top it off,
earlier this evening i had to go and send the stupid cause of this situation
bitchy text messages about knowing that he really didn't give a fuck
and had no desire to continue our friendship after she returned.
which is evidently obvious now.
so. completely drained.
there is nothing left.