Utah Retrospective '07;
I already did my 06 retospective. it's time to retrospect Provo/Orem 06/07 5 months in.
4 jobs.
1 move {another on the way}
been cold
been bored
My great girlfriend Tessa that has literally saved my life and kept me alive and positive through past and present shit.
been and am broke {what's new}
lost my Father forever {not to death}
lost a assumed friend--well, make it 3.
came into negative grips with Christianity--apparently Jesus's sacrifice wasn't enough to save me and and i have to bring forth fruit to be worthy of salvation. i wish that jesus had died for our sins and all we had to do was to believe him and he'll take care of the rest. but my last words to God who is also my Creator and Father---Come claim your son that is lost--you put me here, don't expect me to know what i'm doing.
Came into cold grips that for the last 8 years my life has followed a pattern---and it doesn't matter what i do and say it doesn't change. and always spirals for the negative.
i'm just really glad that i have Tessa. i will do what i can to treat her well and show and give all my love to her. she deserves it, and since i'm just a foreigner, a loser and am utterly broke, i better treat her well since i don't have much going for me. will move to SLC in 2 weeks-------funny how things change. i dont know where i'll live and work but i've been through this so many times before, what's new?? i guess it's a good thing i'm always broke and never have nowhere or no one to count on always---my dad lived a shitty life and now that he has a stable job, has become a selfish fuck, concerned with the uttermost senine. let him die with his money. while others sing about it; I LIVE ROCK AND ROLL, so i'm destined not to have a place to live, never have money and sport a broken heart.
So be it.
I already did my 06 retospective. it's time to retrospect Provo/Orem 06/07 5 months in.
4 jobs.
1 move {another on the way}
been cold
been bored
My great girlfriend Tessa that has literally saved my life and kept me alive and positive through past and present shit.
been and am broke {what's new}
lost my Father forever {not to death}
lost a assumed friend--well, make it 3.
came into negative grips with Christianity--apparently Jesus's sacrifice wasn't enough to save me and and i have to bring forth fruit to be worthy of salvation. i wish that jesus had died for our sins and all we had to do was to believe him and he'll take care of the rest. but my last words to God who is also my Creator and Father---Come claim your son that is lost--you put me here, don't expect me to know what i'm doing.
Came into cold grips that for the last 8 years my life has followed a pattern---and it doesn't matter what i do and say it doesn't change. and always spirals for the negative.
i'm just really glad that i have Tessa. i will do what i can to treat her well and show and give all my love to her. she deserves it, and since i'm just a foreigner, a loser and am utterly broke, i better treat her well since i don't have much going for me. will move to SLC in 2 weeks-------funny how things change. i dont know where i'll live and work but i've been through this so many times before, what's new?? i guess it's a good thing i'm always broke and never have nowhere or no one to count on always---my dad lived a shitty life and now that he has a stable job, has become a selfish fuck, concerned with the uttermost senine. let him die with his money. while others sing about it; I LIVE ROCK AND ROLL, so i'm destined not to have a place to live, never have money and sport a broken heart.
So be it.